Just You Is Enough

I Never Left

Sitting beside him, I move a little bit to keep the distance between the two of us. I don't know why I'm giving him the chance to explain his self to me. All I know is I want nothing but the truth. We both stay silent for a minute and I heard him sighed heavily.

"Thank you for giving me the chance. I know I've been an ass for you and yet you are here with me giving me a chance." He looked at me straight in the eyes. I never thought how I miss looking into his eyes until now.

"I don't know why I did it but you're lucky. James hate you so much did you know that? If words and looks can kill, probably you're already dead."

He chuckled and kicked some stone on the grass.

"Yeah, I know and I understand him. I hate myself too, I really hate myself."

I sighed and looked at him

"So, care to explain?" I asked him.

"I don't know where to start." He said honestly. I looked back at the lake.

"I regret everything. It's all because of my dad, he always wants me to take the company and of course I did being the stupid I am. He said it's for my future and for my sister too. I can't say no to him Sam. He even used you to make me work for him and I need to break up with you just to keep you safe. And that is the hardest thing that I did."

"I don't know... So it's all about your dad? I thought you just get tired of me so you just broke up with me."

"No! That is far from the truth Sam. I will never get tired of you okay? Just so you know that after that day I never left. I never left."

"What do you mean?" I asked curiously.

"Every day I keep on looking at you from a far. Outside your house, your office and when you go to the mall, everywhere. I'm always there with you and it hurts so much knowing that you are near with me but I can't hold you just like before. It kills me every time knowing I'm the reason why you are feeling this way and you don't deserve it."

"You are always there with me?" I asked more of whispering to myself.

"Yes and I'm sorry Sam, I hope that you will forgive me."

"Honestly, I'm not really mad at you. It's on what you did to me Luke and now that I'm trying to convince myself to forgive you, I think that it's not that easy. Maybe someday this wound will be healed by itself but right now, even a pain reliever can't help, I'm sorry."

"I know and I am sorry Sam. Just can we try it once more?"

"What do you mean?"

"Give me another chance and I'll prove it to you."

"I'm sorry but you are asking too much. The only thing I can offer you now is friendship. Besides you are dating Camilia."

"I will accept it, if it's the only way I can be with you once again I will accept it. Camilia? I don't like her. We are only dating because of our parents. She knows everything about me and please believe me when I say that we are both in the same stupid situation."

"I want to believe you but I don't know. Why you didn't fight for me? Why you didn't tell me this?"

"Because this is the only way I can keep you safe. If I told you the situation I know you will never agree and just so you know I fought for us Sam. I really did."

"I think I've heard enough. I'm sorry Luke" I never knew I was crying until Luke envelope me with his arms. I missed this, I missed him and it kills me thinking how we ended like this. I put my arms on his neck and pull him with me.