Just You Is Enough

I Need A Break

My mind is swimming in a million questions right now. He hides his past away from me for about three years, three years we've been together and I never lied to him about anything. I know that when I met him, he was broke but he told me that the girl who broke it was now married and won't come back anymore. The same reason his parents told me back then and I believed it.

"You also lied to your parents?" I ask and he nods sadly.

"Why you didn't tell me all of this back then?" I asked pulling away from him.

"I don't know, maybe because you'll just pity me."

"You know I'm not." I told him.

"She almost beat us, you've been together for two years and a half and we are together for three years. She's been always with you since you guys were small; she knows everything like all your relatives, your friends, God I don't even know your friends because you never let me. You guys even went to dates, mall together, watch movies in the cinema together. I don't know Luke what else but I am not mad at that, I am mad that you have to hide it away from me! Of course I'll be lying if I say that I am not jealous because I am! I wish it was me you saw first instead of her, I wish I was the one you do all of your 'first' instead of her, I wish I was the one Luke but I know that I will never be." I said and I can help but keep the tears fall from my eyes.

"Sam, you know I love you and I wish also that it was you. You are everything to me Sam and you've got to believe me! You may not even be my first but I want you to be my last!" I was in awe when he said the last part.

"When Tanya showed up, why you didn't tell me everything?"

"I didn't say anything because I know that it's all in the past. Tanya and I already talked about this"

"What? You guys already talked?"

"Y-yeah, right after that party, you remember that night with my high school friends?" he said and I nod at him.

"I told him that I already have a girlfriend and she is fine with that, she said that she is already eyeing someone and I am happy for that. We were friends before anything happened and we have decided to be friends again like before, like we used to and she agrees. She's a good person Sam; she is nothing to me now but just a good friend of mine." He added.

"What did you feel when you saw her?" I can't help but ask.

"Nothing, just happy because I saw her once again, I missed her because we are friends and like what I told you that's all."He said and I can see the sincerity in his eyes and voice.

"I believe you Luke if it will make you feel better, but I need time for all of this. It's too much for me to take it all for one day." He nods at me.

"I'm sorry" he said and I said nothing.

"You go and rest; wait is she still staying at your flat?" I ask.

"Yes, but I already move back to my flat just so you know." I sigh in relief.

"Thank you." I smiled at him while he is looking at me deeply.

"I am so selfish for not considering your feelings and I am so sorry for that." he said and I look away from him.

"So, ahmm see you tomorrow?" he asks and I bit my lip, I forgot to tell him.

"I'm sorry; I forgot to tell you that I'm leaving tomorrow." I told him and he frowns.

"Wait, what? Where are you going?"

"Instead of living on Friday, I've decided to do it tomorrow."