Just You Is Enough

Issues

The moment his lips touched mine, I get weak like my knees will drop in any minute. My body feels the electric feeling that I really missed. The kiss was a little bit rough but at the same time, it was sweet and I can feel the lust and care at the same time. I missed this. I feel like floating. I keep reminding myself on how wrong is this but I can't because this is what I've been craving for. I want to be selfish for a minute even it's just for a while. As we kiss, I felt like all my prayers have been answered.

I still love him.

I've been asking myself these past few months if I still love him but I guess I'm just feeding my mind and soul that I've already moved on even if I still don't. I'm just too dumb playing with my own feelings. It just sucks that when I made believe myself that I already moved on but then my feelings just can't lie. I pulled away gasping for air, he rested his forehead to mine and we just stare to one another as we listen to our own breathing.

"I love you Sam, and I know you love me too. I can feel it from the way you kissed me." Luke said while he is looking at me. I know he is waiting for my answer but I can't think straight right now.

This is so wrong! Like how can he kiss me after we broke up? I've been a mess and I can't help but think about him even if I know that he is having the time if his life! Is it a joke? Because I don't want to play his game, I don't want to play with fire. I never thought that I will love someone deeply like him, I felt like dreaming. I feel excited everyday to see his face, to see him smile because of me. I thought about our dreams together, our future together but I never thought that the love I have for him will just going to be the reason for him to slip away.

Is it wrong to love too much? Or is it my love is not enough?

I wonder where I went wrong. I wonder how to make this love perfect.

I know deep inside me that I loved him. No, erase that, I still love him. Hard. And that's what makes this feeling so difficult to deal with, when your feelings or emotion starts telling you things that your mind won't allow. That's what everything's became so hard to deal with.

"This is wrong." I told him avoiding his eyes.

"No, nothing is wrong. I love you and we love each other and you know that." he said holding my hands. I was about to pull away but he grab it once more.

I shook my head and asked him the question I've wanted to ask.

"Where did I go wrong?" I ask as I look at him straight in the eye.

He frowns and then his eyes looks like he's guilty in some way.

"There is nothing wrong with you Sam, it's me."

I pulled away from him harshly. I need to stand up from myself. I need to fight for my feelings.

"We are going at this excuse again? Like really Luke, how old are you? You can't just come in here to kiss me and then tells me you love me!" I shook at him.

"What do you mean? You kissed me back too and admit it you still love me!" He said.

"No Luke, everything we had is in the past now. We are over; you made it clear the last time we met. Telling me you want to be happy so I let you go. We can't do this Luke."

Luke snorts like he just can't believe on what I am saying.

"Why? Don't you love me no more? Is there someone else now?" he said bitterly like he is taunting me.