Love is for the Lucky Ones

Chapter 36

{Mae's POV}

Gina comes out of the room with Cain. I didn't see him behind me until it was too late.

"WHAT THE HELL, MAE!" He screeches as my lips were pressed against Brody.

"I- Uhh..." I burst into tears. What was I thinking! I can't kiss Brody... I can't be with Cain. I can't do anything right.

"Mae, I'm sorry but when I was talking with Cain, he is right. You need to stop being an attention whore. Okay?" Gina says trying to sound polite.

"So... You're leaving too?" I ask her knowing what her answer was going to answer.

She nods and I nod back. The rest of our conversation was a blur. All I know is Gina and Cain leave the house with their things. Gina probably going back to finish her education and Cain probably going to go live with Cassie, try to fix things with her and have the baby, as a family.

I sit on the couch crying, leaning against Brody's chest watching as Tami stays next to me. Neither of them say a word, nor would I want them to.

I feel Brody's chest rise and fall, his shuddering breaths, and his rapid heart beat. He's scared... scared of what I could do to him.

...

We are home at our apartment, back from the beach. How we got back, I'm not sure the whole thing is a blur to me. I mope up the stairs to our-my room. Cain's things were gone and I was all alone. I sink into the bed, letting my tears soak my bedspread.

"Mae, dinner!" I hear the voice from down stairs.

"I-I'm f-f-fine!" I barely manage to stutter back. This is dumb, this is stupid. I'm not going to eat, maybe then I'll finally be as pretty as everyone else. I'm not going to do anything but sit here and hope I die.

I lean my head against the headboard of my bed. "He's gone." I whisper. "He's gone." This isn't fair. I shouldn't feel this way. He never loved me in the first place.

"Knock Knock... Can I come in?" Brody taps on the railing at the top of the stairs considering I have no door.

I don't reply so Brody hobbles over with his prosthetic leg and sits beside me on my bed.

"Hey Mae, I know things may be tough right now. I know you've been through a lot but, this isn't something you should be worrying about. But I know you are so I want you to know I am always here for you."

"Thanks... But I don't need help."

"I know you don't think you do, but I know that you do. And I want to help."

"You can't help me!" I burst out in an angry tone. "I'm sorry. Things have just been happening so fast and I don't know what to do! I lost my best friend. I lost my boyfriend. I lost everything that was ever important to me. Everything I ever strived for, I lost! But that doesn't matter to me anymore! Because I'm done with trying to feel loved, and wanted. I don't fit in and I don't belong here. What I really want to say is--"

Brody presses his lips to mine. For split second I kiss back before pushing him away. "No! This can't happen either. You can't go around kissing me. You can't be my boyfriend."

"But Mae---"

"No buts. I can't date you I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry about. This is my fault. I shouldn't have assumed that you liked me back."

"Brody... It's not that I don't like you back, it is just that I don't think I can handle another relationship."

"Oh... okay. I totally understand."

"Hey, I'm sorry, okay?"

"Mae, it's fine, I promise."

There was a slight pause between us where he glanced at me. Jax jumped into my lap and I stroked his soft head, eyeing Brody.

"Well, I,uh, better be leaving then. I don't know where to go so... I guess I'll be going back to my old dorm." Brody said implying that he doesn't want to leave.

I get up and set Jax onto the floor. I stomp down the stairs and open then door to Gina's room. Just as I figured, Gina was gone, too.

"Well, you can stay here if u want to. Since no one is living here anymore."

"Really!? Oh thank you!" Brody exclaims and rushes into the room. I giggle and walk out to the kitchen to meet Tami.

"So... you and Brody, huh?"

"Haha... in your dreams."

"Sure... I've seen the way he looks at you, Mae, he is totally into you."

"Tami! You know I can't be in a relationship right now!"

"So what did you tell him then?" Tami questions giving me a glare and raising her eyebrows.

"I just simply told him that I can't be with him."

"That's it?"

"Yeah why?"

"Mae! He likes you it's so obvious! You need to tell him you aren't interested!" Tami chuckles.

I glare at her. "How? How can I just tell him I don't like him, like that?"

"Just walk up to him and say something like, 'Hey, so I've been thinking and I don't like you like that but I hope we can still be friends.'"

"Tami! It's not that easy!"

"Sure it is!" Brody says from behind me. Shoot he must have heard me.

"Brody I---"

"No it's okay, I understand." He butts in.

"Well... That was easier than you expected." Tami says. I hate the fact that she is right and that I hurt Brody's feelings. I hope he isn't too mad.

"Well I'm going to go shower. Goodnight!" Brody says and walks out of the room, loudly slamming his door behind him shaking the walls.

"I think I am too." I say to Tami who nods.

"Goodnight."

"Goodnight Tami. See you tomorrow."