Love is for the Lucky Ones

Chapter 21

{Cain's POV}

I feel a move in the bed and I wake up. I blink a couple of times, not used to my surroundings. This unfamiliar surrounding had a very home-like feeling, though. I stretch my arms into the air and yawn. I look over at Mae who was sleeping with her back towards me.

I plop my head back down onto my pillow and throw my arms around her body. I get close to her body. She grips my hand and laces our fingers together. She moved back into my body so that we lay there, perfectly fit together, just like how two pieces of a puzzle fit together.

I hear a defeated sigh come from Mae. She turns her head up, and gazes at me from her upside-down position.

I smile a her and I see the corner of her lips turn up. She squeezes my hands and I look down at her ams laying on top of the sheet. I immediately turn the corner of my lips down in a frown.

There were new scabs on her arm but also there were horrid scars from a couple of weeks back. The funny thing is she has been wearing short sleeved shirts and I've never noticed them.

"Mae?" I say quietly in case she was still asleep

"Mmm-hmm?" She mumbles back.

"I thought you said that you promised to stop." I say and she shoots me a confused glance.

"I'm sorry?" She says.

I move my eyebrows towards her arms and she immediately lets go of my hand and pushes her arm under the covers.

"Mae!" I say and she shoots me a fake 'I'm Okay' glance.

She throws the covers off of her and steps out of bed in only my long T-shirt covering her. She storms out of the room, well floor. She thumps down the stairs and I shush her.

"Oh boo-hoo! Gina's a heavy sleeper an Tami hates fighting so she wont come out!" She yells at me and I sigh.

I jump out of bed and chase her. I run down stairs to see Mae collapsed on the floor grasping a piece if paper in her hand. She looks back at me through her tear stained eyes.

I wonder what was wrong so I walked over to her and took the note from her grip. It read:

I have always loved our friendship so don't get mad when I say I can't handle it. Not only can't I handle all of the drama of self-harm and suicide but its not something that moving away would fix. The only thing that would fix it is if I left and for once you cared about someone other than yourself. I love you all and I just want to say that you will never see me again. I am moving, I guess you could say that it is far, far away, but don't come looking for me. You will be disappointed if you do. You wont find me because I will no longer be on this Earth. I'm sorry but I can't handle it so I want to know what it feels like to want to die. So good-bye. I will see you all when you greet me in heaven.

~Your friend,Tami

I drop my jaw in total shock. I glance over at Mae who was curled up in a ball. She was hugging her knees, rocking back and forth on the balls of her feet. I push back the thoughts of the conversation we were having this morning and comes forth were the thoughts of the suicide note left by Tami.

A lump rises in my throat but I push it away. I need to stay strong for Mae. Her best friend had just left a suicide note. I hug Mae by wrapping one arm around her shoulder and squeezing. She leans her face into my shoulder and I pull her into a standing position. We hobble over to Gina's room and burst into the room.

Sitting on the floor was Gina writing notes on sharks. Mae walks in first and immediately collapses next to Mae.

"Gina! It's, it's, it's Tami!" She stutters barely managing to speak through her shaky voice and tears.

"What about her?" Gina says more interested in her studies.

"She left a flipping suicide note! I don't know where she is and I'm scared!"

Gina looks up at Mae and calmly says, "Have you looked in her room?"

"No! But that's not the point! The point is she could be dead."

I watch as the conversation heats up. Gina doesn't respond but instead just points to Tami's room.

We slowly walk towards her room. We open the door slowly and inside was a lifeless Tami sprawled out across her bed.