Thantophobia (Joel Pimentel & Yoandri Cabrera)

Chapter 15

For a couple of minutes, we just layed on the ground completely silent. The only sound was birds chirping outside, which was odd because it was the middle of the night. At some point, I thought Yoandri had fallen asleep. This, of course, was proven wrong when he spoke up.

"Are you ready?" He softly asked. I simply nodded.

In reality no, I was not ready. What if he asked about Joel? Or why I was always sad. What if Joshua had told him something? A lot of thoughts raced to my mind and my anxiety was all over the place. I just hoped he didn't notice.

"What's your favorite color?" He asked. This amused me somehow. Out of all the questions he could possibly ask, he chose this one.

"Burgundy." I replied. "I wasn't joking when I said I loved your sweater, Yolandra." I added, remembering what what the guys had told me to do.

"Don't call me that." He groaned. I couldn't help but laugh. "Okay next question, what's your favorite song?"

"Umm, this is hard. I guess anything from Bruno Mars." I replied. Suddenly remembering that Joel always sang a different Bruno Mars song before I went to sleep. I pushed those thoughts away, I can't cry, not right now.

"Oh really? I like Bruno Mars too! He's amazing!" Yoandri exclaimed. I nodded in agreement.

"If you could live anywhere, where would it be?" He asked. With Joel. I replied in my mind.

"Hawaii." I lied. "Okay, that's enough questions for today." I sighed. It wasn't that Yoandri was annoying me with his question game, but I couldn't risk thinking about Joel.

"But I only asked you three questions! That's not fair Mari!" He lightly shouted. I chuckled in response.

"You get three questions a day Yoyo. I'm afraid your three questions of the day have expired." I joked, earning a laugh from Yoandri.

"Fine whatever you say." He agreed. " Do you want to ask me some questions?" He asked. "Well three, it's only fair."

I agreed. I gave it some thought. I didn't want to ask him personal questions because he didn't ask me anything about my life. I knew Yoandri's intentions were good, so I decided to take it easy on him.

"How does it feel to have a chipped tooth?" I softly laughed. For some reason, making fun of Yoandri amused me.

"Mari let it gooo!" He whined. "But it doesn't hurt. It just feels weird when I run my tongue over it. Man Johann is going to laugh at me once he sees it."

I couldn't help but laugh. "Your friends love you Yoyo, you're very lucky to have them." I truthfully told him. Johann seemed like an older brother figure to them. Despite the fact that he joked around a lot, you could tell that he truly cared about his friends.

"Yeah, they're the best." He hummed in response.

We stayed silent once again. Neither of us speaking, just lost in our own thoughts.

"So, do you want to go to sleep? I could take you to my room. You can use the bed and I'll sleep on the floor." I decided to speak up first. I offered him my bed since he was somehow my guest.

"How about we both share the bed." Yoyo replied looking at me, completely throwing me off guard. "I mean I wouldn't want you sleeping on the floor and I don't want to sleep on the floor. My back is starting to cramp up and..." Yoandri babbled and I just listened to him, he was intriguing.

"Yoandri, it's fine." I interrupted him. "We can both sleep on the bed." I softly smiled.

I led him to the room I used to share with Joel, trying not to step on something along the way. When we finally got there I told Yoandri to take the left side of the bed (my side) while I took the right side (Joel's side).

It still smelled like Joel. I let the smell intoxicate me. It was just a matter of time before it completely vanished.

"Good night Yoandri." I softly said, touching his cheek.

"Good night Mari." Then he leaned in and kissed my cheek. This boy is always taking me by surprise.

He crawled back to his side and in a matter of seconds he was asleep. I hugged the pillow that used to belong to Joel and quietly let the tears fall.

"Good night, Joel. I love you." I whispered as I wiped the tears away.
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2am update because why not? I'm finally 17, don't know whether to be happy or cry? Happy fucking birthday to me.

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