Broken Love

Chapter 51

Sadie's POV
" I'm moving to Australia "

Okay, you could say I got hit in the face with a brick because I did NOT see them coming.

It didn't slowly sink in like it usually does. It didn't seem like a joke for one second. Instead, I knew that he was not fooling around. It all made sense; why he was stuttering over the phone earlier today and the look on his face when he broke it to me that he was moving away from me to all the way across the world.

I hadn't expected it at all. Now I felt terribly stupid. Of course he would have to move. He's moved like, what, 7 times in his life. I couldn't believe I was dumb enough to believe he could stay by my side forever.

He was such a big part of my life; it was like a part of me was tearing in half. It wasn't LIKE a hammer to the heart. It wasn't LIKE a knee in the stomach. It wasn't LIKE a hand wrapping around my neck. It was actually a hammer to the heart, a knee in the stomach, a hand wrapping around my neck to choke me to death.

I felt more attached to him than before. I needed him more than ever. Now I finally understood the meaning of, "you only know you love someone until they are gone"

I should have seen this coming...Nothing lasts forever in this cruel world. I shouldn't have gotten so attatched to him. I shouldn't have held on.

Sometimes letting go is better than holding on.

At this point, was it even possible to let go? I have never loved some one as much as Edward. I can't move on. Not now. Not ever.

Tears started to roll down my cheecks.

I laughed sadly. " You know....I actually thought we might have a chance together. I thought you would stay, but man I was so damn wrong and I was stupid to ever believe you would actually stay long enough for anything to ever happen "

Ed wiped away some of my tears. His touch stinged. It was like a reminder that this would probably be one of the last times he would wipe away my tears.

" Sadie that isn't true...We still have a cha- "

" A chance? Really Edward? A chance? How? We'll be millions of miles away from each other " I sobbed.

" Our love is stronger than that. Distance won't stop us "

More tears escaped my eyes. Ed held me in his arms and stroked my hair as I cried.

I took in deep breaths, but it felt like every breath I took I got less and less oxygen. My lungs felt suffocated - like they were about to crumble.

The pain of having someone you love get taken away, is far more painful than any physical injury.

There was a heavy sinking feeling in my heart. My heart was getting farther away from Ed loves and comfort. Soon I would be in a cold lonely world, alone. The warmth and comfort of his touch would be ripped away from me in short weeks time.

My heart felt like it would never stop hurting. The pain grew more and more by the second. All the love Ed had given me was emptied out, and now my heart was hollow. There was not a hint of being loved in there. It was like the word itself was foreign.

Love.

It's strange how the person who brought you the most happiness could bring you the most pain in seconds.

I was shaking and crying uncontrollably. Ed nuzzled his face into my shoulder, which brought back some feeling and warmth to me. My whole body had been numb for minutes without me even noticing.