Love hurts?

I miss you

Ocean's POV

I've been back at my parents for a month now and except for getting to see DJ everyday I've hated everyday of it. They still have custody of him and it kills me having to ask for permission to do anything with him. I can't even go to the store or to the park with him without their permission and it kills me. DJ is my son and all I want to do is just scream and take him away with me. Since I got back Sherri has done nothing but question and pick at every little thing I do. I know it's going to take a long time before I can convince my mother I'm able to care for DJ myself and get her to sign custody back over to me that's the only reason I've kept my mouth closed and done everything they've asked and as hard as it is to bite my tongue and not flip out, I look at DJ and remind myself why I'm here.

I get downstairs and my mother is in the kitchen trying to feed DJ who's refusing "I can do that" I smile walking over to them. "Not this time sweetie" she shakes her head "I've only just put fresh clothes on him and I don't want him getting all messy again" I sigh an sit at the table watching my mother making aeroplane sounds, trying to convince him to eat "he doesn't like it when..."

"Ocean, I've have had two kids. I do know how to feed a baby" she cuts me off and I sit back and watch as DJ continues to move away every time. I keep telling her he doesn't like the aeroplane game but she refuses to listen. DJ is just like Michael when it comes to food. He just wants to sit and eat it in peace. not fuck around having to listen to stupid noises.

"I was thinking of taking DJ to the park today"

"I'm going to be visiting a friend today. Maybe tomorrow" I bite down on my tongue fighting the urge to say something. "Why don't you go down to the school today since you have nothing else to do?" Sherri says walking into the room "now you haven't got Duncan to worry about you should be thinking about going back" I'm about to speak when my mother interrupts "you could at least go down down there and speak to the principal...it's not like you have anything better to do today" she shrugs "fine! I'll go take a shower and get ready" I sigh rolling my eyes and head upstairs to get ready.

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Jessica's POV

I do feel kind of bad about not letting Ocean do more with Duncan, but once she's back at school and hanging out with her friends being a normal teenager again. She'll be to busy to worry about Duncan and getting custody back and will realise it's for the best. "She's not gonna give up" Sherri says snapping me from my thoughts "Duncan's her child she isn't going to just hand him over to you"

"She will soon enough...trust me. Once she's back at school and starts being a normal teenager again. She'll be too busy to look after him or even care" I reassure her "we messed up the first time" I smile picking Duncan "we have a second chance with Duncan and we're not going to mess it up like we did with our other kids"

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Michael's POV

I'm finally out of rehab and the first thing I do when I get back to Jermaine's is run upstairs to get my phone "what are you doing?" Jermaine asks following me into the room "I'm gonna call Ocean" I smile and begin dialling but before I can finish, Jermaine takes the phone from me "what are you doing?" I ask confused and he sighs sitting beside me at the end of the bed "maybe you should wait a few days and get used to being back" he suggests "I haven't spoken to her is six weeks! I wanna talk to her. I wanna hear her voice" he sighs sympathetically "I know you do but...just give it a few day ok? Figure out what you wanna say to her" I sigh knowing he's right. "I'm gonna run to the store and get us something for lunch. You wait here and get settled in ok?" He smiles changing the subject "I nod smiling back through pursed lips "Ok"

"I'll be back in about ten minutes. And don't call her ok?" He says sternly raising his eyebrow "I won't" I roll my eyes.

After Jermaine leaves I wonder around the house trying to think of what I'm gonna say when I speak to Ocean. I've always been able to talk to her confidently but this time it's different. Even though she's still my wife I haven't spoken to her in  six week and I have no idea how to even start a conversation her with her. Or what to say.