Love hurts?

I can't do this anymore

Ocean's POV

I'm sitting in the kitchen with Randy waiting for Michael. It's been a few weeks now and I finally feel ready to go back to school "are you excited to be coming back?" Randy asks smiling "um, kinda, I'm more nervous than anything" I confess "well don't be! I told you nobody's been saying mean about you. And even if they tried, I'm gonna be there remember?" He smiles trying to reassure me. "Are you ready?" Michael mutters walking in holding DJ. I take DJ from him giving him a cuddle "I'm gonna miss you so much" I tell him kissing his forehead "are you gonna be ok while mommy's at school?"

"He doesn't really have a choice" Michael mumbles heading to the front door. I follow behind him ignoring what he just said. He's been moody all morning but when I've asked him about it he just shrugs and says he's fine.

We're about to get in the car and I stop seeing my mother looking through her window. We still haven't spoken since the day they came to the hospital and it still hurts knowing their just next door I see a faint smile from her then she starts moving away from the window. Michael finishes strapping DJ into his car seat then turns to see what I'm looking at "c'mon" he says softly taking hand leading me into the car "don't worry about them"

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I've gotten so used to being at home with DJ it feels strange being back here in a classroom. I was really worried about coming back at first because I didn't know how people were going to react. I got one or two dirty stares but other then that everyone's been really nice especially Sarah and Tony, they were shocked when they first heard Michael and I got married and had a baby and Sarah still can't quite believe it.  "Hellooo...Earth to Ocean!" Sarah says snapping me from my thoughts "huh?" I look at her confused "class is over" she giggles

"You must be missing DJ huh?" She asks as we're walking to our next class "it just feels weird leaving him, I feel like I've just dumped him to go do my own thing" I confess "you haven't dumped him. He's with his dad" she shrugs "well yeah but only until he goes to work then Katharine's gonna watch him until I get back" I sigh "I hate just passing him from person to person like that. I just wanna be with him all the time" she smiles through pursed lips "then why don't you go home during lunch break? That way you can spend some time with him" she suggests.

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I come home at lunch time. I'm not sure if DJ will be taking a nap so start looking around for Michael quietly. "He's upstairs bathing Duncan" Joseph says walking into the living room.

When I get to the top  of the stairs Michael is walking out of the bathroom with DJ. "What are you doing back?" he frowns confused walking into our bedroom. "I wanted to come and see you and DJ" I smile at DJ sitting next to him on the bed while Michael is dressing him. "You didn't seem that bothered this morning, you couldn't wait to get away from us" he snaps getting up from the bed "Of course I was bothered!" I snap back walking over to him "I have to get ready for work" he mumbles ignoring me. "Why are you being like this? You knew I was gonna be going back to school" he turns to me frowning "I don't care! We should be your first priority me and your son! Not your friends US!!"

"And you both ARE! Why are you making such a big deal out of it? You go to work all day everyday and not once have I whined or complained about it but the second I leave the house I'm in the wrong!" I yell and he walks up close to me and gets right in my face "yes! Actually your are in the wrong! You don't have to go to school. You could stay here and be a mother and take care of our son. But instead you chose to walk out and go hang out with your friends. I don't wanna have to work all day everyday and leave the two of you here alone, but I have to because I have a wife and son to care for. And who I actually care enough about put the two of you both first. And the reason I don't whine and complain about is because unlike you I'm not a selfish little bitch!!" I suddenly feel his palm slap across my face as I hit into the dresser. And he stands motionless