Love hurts?

Dark secret

Michael's POV

I didn't intend to do what I did. When I was going there I was gonna tell Joseph to leave Janet alone. I had no intention of attacking Anybody but as soon as I saw him getting out of that car something just snapped inside of me. Janet's my baby sister and she always will be and as long as I'm around I'll do whatever it takes to protect her. Even if that mean having to attack my own father or ruin a person to the point they take their own life. I'm not proud of what I did to Emma but if it took her killing herself to spare Janet from any pain then so be it. I'd do the exact same thing if it was Ocean or DJ.

I know Ocean knows what I did to Joseph. I could see it in her eyes when I walked into the bedroom, she knows what I did. She still hasn't said anything about it and I'm not sure what's going through her mind right now. Does she agree with what I did? or is she just to scared to say anything unsure of how I will react?

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We're sat watching TV and it's still playing on my mind why she hasn't said anything or flipped...or something. "I know you know" I mumble "know what?" She looks at me trying to act confused "you know what I'm talking about" I say in a low voice. "Why did you do it?" She shakes her head confused "he hit Janet...when I took her in my room to change her shirt she was covered in bruises" she looks at me shocked "but she's just a little girl!" She gasps slightly. "I didn't go there to hit him, but as soon as I saw him I just snapped"

"You didn't just hit him though, I saw him...and I saw your clothes they were covered in blood! What exactly did you do to him?" I shake my head and switch of the TV "I'm not gonna go into any details but if you wanna asks me anything then I'll answer you" I mumble. "You planned this though....that's why you asked me to come over later wasn't it? So you could go to Joseph?"

"Yes. I've always protected Janet and I always will"

"Have you ever done anything to anyone else to protect her?" I put my head down and nod "what did you do to them?"

"I told you I'm not gonna say the details"

"Why are you so protective of her?"

"Because when we were younger a relative of mine was planning on....touching her. And after that I promised myself I'd do whatever it takes to keep her safe"

"How do you know he was planning on touching her?" She frowns confused. I don't say anything for a moment unsure if I should tell her any more. "How do you know?" She asks again this time more softly "because...he started acting and talking to her the way he did....with me" I mumble "did he touch you?" I nod pursing my lips trying not to get upset "did he do anything else?" I shake my head. "No"

"Is that why you attacked Jack when he made a move on you?"

"Kinda...I was more mad at myself for being so stupid and letting it happen again....I - I'm not gay ...I never wanted them too..." I start sobbing and she pulls me in to her tightly "of course your not!" She soothes "non of that was your fault"

"But it was! I-I obviously said or or done something to make them think I wanted too" I stutter. She cups my face in her hands lifting my head to face her "you did nothing wrong...you trusted two people and they betrayed you...that's not your fault. They just made you think that" I start crying and she rests my head on her shoulder softly stroking the back of my neck. And continues talking.

"That's what people like them do. They make you think it's all your fault. And that your the one who wanted this and try to make you think it was your idea. And then they tell you how much it would hurt your family if they ever found out....and you think their protecting you when they promise they'll never tell anybody, but in fact their just protecting themselves"

I lift my head up from her shoulder and look into her beautiful blue eyes and I can see the same sadness and fear I get sometimes. "It happened to you to didn't it?" I whisper and she nods. "Sherri's fist husband"

"Did you ever tell her?" She shakes her head "I was spending the summer with her while my parents were away and one day she came home early from work and she saw him.....touching me" she croaks. "And she um....she got mad and told me that I'd ruined her marriage and that I was lucky my parents didn't see how disgusting their daughter was"

"She blamed you!?" she nods "how old were you?"

"8" she starts crying and I pull her in close to me, holding on to her tightly. I've only ever told my therapist about my uncle, even though he was sympathetic he never truly understood what I went through. I'm relieved I've finally found someone who really does understand what happened to me....I just wish it hadn't been Ocean.

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Ocean's POV

We on the sofa cuddling not saying anything. Neither of us had to because we already knew how the other was feeling and what they were thinking. Just like Michael I've held on to this secret for so long and it's been slowly eating away at me, but now it feels like all the shame and disgust I had for myself has been taken away.

Moments later we're disturbed when Jermaine comes rushing into the house. "Have you spoken to mother!?" He asks Michael in a worried tone "no why?"

"It's Joseph, he was attacked earlier"

"Is he ok?"

"The hospital allowed him to go home but he's pretty shaken up. We have to go and see him" Michael shakes his head "I'm not his son anymore remember?" Jermaine frowns shaking his head "Michael our father was just attacked. This is no time to worry about your fucking pride!" He snaps. Michael doesn't say anything and Jermaine looks at him skeptically "it was you! You did this didn't you!?"

"Of course not!"

"Michael's been here with me all night" I cut in "Then why don't you wanna see him?" He frowns "because I just don't" Michael snaps "If I found out you had anything to do with this" he says sternly "well I didn't" Jermaine shakes his head annoyed and storms out to go and see Joseph.

"Thank you" Michael mumbles turning to me "we've both been through enough for one night" I smile through pursed lips and take his hand leading him upstairs.

When we get into the bed we begin cuddling and kissing. Moments later I feel Michael's erection brush up against me and I pull him closer to me. "Do you really wanna do this?" He whispers kissing me tenderly and I nod "I wanna make love to you" I smile and he nods smiling back.

Michael laced his fingers with mine kissing me tenderly and he slowly began entering me. Something felt different this time, our kisses were soft and tender and the way he softly caressed the side of my face as we stared lovingly into each other's eyes. Even they way our hips moved in sync it was slow and gentle. As we started getting closer Michael cupped my face in his hands and kissed me in a way he's never kissed me before as we both climaxed.

We stayed in the same position frozen in a way just staring into each other's eyes. We've made love before but this time it felt different. I've never felt so loved as I do in this moment and I can see in his eyes he can feel it too.

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Michael's POV

As I lay staring into her eyes I can see she felt it too. We've made love so many times before but this time was different it wasn't about giving each other pleasure it was like two souls coming together as one.  I've never felt as loved and as safe as I do right now. It felt more real than it ever has before. For the first time we made love.