Love hurts?

Honesty

Ocean's POV

We get back from the doctors, who confirmed i'm just over a month pregnant and Michael has been smiling from ear to ear the entire time. "Can you believe it!?" He says excitedly. "we've been talking about having another baby for two weeks and the whole time you were already pregnant!" he smiles. "yeah, it's great" I fake a smile, which he see's straight through. "what's wrong I thought this was what we both wanted?" He asks confused. "it is. I'm just surprised is all" I lie

"I know I still can't believe it either!" I'm about to speak when Jermaine walks in. "what's put you two in such a great mood?"

"well..." Michael begins, but I quickly cut him off. "nothing... We're just happy" I shrug. And Michael frowns confused. "why did you do that?" He asks when Jermaine leaves the room. "I just don't want people to know yet"

"this isn't like the other times. We don't have to worry about our families or the baby being taken away. Abby even said remember? They can't take the baby away unless we do something wrong" he reassures me. "yeah, I know. But I just wanna let it all sink in first" I smile and he nods. "yeah, I'm still pretty surprised myself"

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I go to the bathroom and the second I close the door, I break down in tears. This was supposed to be perfect and I've gone and ruined everything. Michael's so happy and excited about becoming a father again and it's going to break his heart when he finds out the truth. I never told him about what happened with Jermaine that night and I thought I could just put it all behind me and forget to ever happened, but now there's no way I can do that. I hate myself for what happened that night. It's bad enough I cheated on Michael and I know there's a chance he'll leave me if he found out, but to sit back and let him think this baby is his is just cruel. As much I don't wanna do this and I know I have to tell him the truth.

"baby, what's happened?" Michael ask worriedly coming into the bathroom. "nothing. I um..."

"awww. is it your hormones?" He smiles wrapping his arms around me. "Michael, I have to tell you something" I croak. "sure, what's wrong?" He asks softly rubbing my back. "I- I... I'm so sorry" I stutter trying to get my words out. "baby, if this is about you not telling me straight away, it's fine. I already told you I wasn't mad" he smiles "it- it's not that" I stutter then take a deep breath. "that night when..." I begin and we're interrupted when Nevaeh starts crying. "I'll go her. You just try and relax ok? It's lot to take in for you" he smiles and leaves the room to go and get Neveah.

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Michael's POV

Ocean seemed really down since we got back from the doctors. I Thought she'd be excited as me and wanna tell everybody, but instead she seems upset and wants to keep it a secret. It's probably just her hormones or something, which is why I haven't made such a big deal about it just like when she was pregnant with DJ and Nevaeh she had her ups and downs.

My thoughts are broken when there's a knock at the door. "someone's cheery today!" My mother smiles coming into the house. "has Ocean left for school already?"

"um... Actually Ocean's not going in today. Sorry I forgot to call and let you know we didn't need you to watch Nevaeh"

"it's fine.. I can still see my granddaughter" she smiles "so what's wrong with Ocean? Is She sick?"

"um... Not exactly" I purse my lips trying to hide my excitement. "so are you gonna tell me?" She shrugs confused. "ok, but you can't say anything... Not yet... Ocean's pregnant!"

"why am I not surprised" she rolls her eyes. "your gonna have another grandchild. You should be happy"

"I am happy. It's just..."