Love hurts?

True feelings

Ocean's POV

I knew from the beginning my family would be disappointed in me when they found out but I never thought for one second they would turn their back on me. My son, their grandson could have died today and he almost did and they didn't even care. I carried him, I felt every kick and movement as he grew inside on me. Even though we were scared and didn't know what to do in the beginning. When Michael and I saw him for the first time there was this instant love for him and they just wanted us to abandon him like he was nothing.

Michael and I are laying on my bed cuddling and he sits up and starts crying "this is all my fault" he mumbles through his tears "your parents left you because of me" I sit up putting my arms around him "what they did wasn't your fault" I reassure him "but it was, if I hadn't of done what I did"

"What we did, it took both of us remember?" He looks down guilty "but we didn't though,...I worked it out the dates and stuff, the day he was conceived it was our first time. that's when I...you didn't have a choice, I..." He pauses and begins to weep. "I'm so sorry" I lift his head up so he's facing me "Michael, I forgave you for that along time ago"

"How can you? I can't even forgive myself. It was our first time and I held you down and I...I forced" he sobs looking away from me again "you didn't want to be with me that night but I held you down. And you didn't want to conceive my child but that same night I forced him inside of you" I look at him confused. "What are you saying? You'd rather he wasn't here?" He shakes his head "no, Of course not. I love him just like I love you. I'm saying I shouldn't have given him to you that way. I should have given him to you out of love"

"Why did you force me that night?" He doesn't answer for a moment "because I love you and I wanted to show you that. I didn't come in to your room that night to force you. I came into your room because I was hurt and I needed you, I just wanted you to hold me because your the only person who truly makes me feel loved, then I blacked out. At the time I didn't remember I just remembered that one moment we were talking and the next we were together and you were asking me to go slower and I did, At the time I didn't remember what happened when I blacked out but over time I start getting like these flash backs of what happened?" I turn his face once again to face me "And you told me this same thing that night" he looks at me confused "you told me that you did because you loved me. And when you were holding me down you told me you couldn't let go because you were scared that if you did I'd leave you, but eventually you did" I pull him in close to me. "And I'm still here aren't I?" I smile slightly "because your scared of me?" He asks nervously. I shake my head "because I love you" I press my lips softly against his then stand up taking his hand guiding him to our son. "Look at him" he looks down at him nervously "do you love him?" I ask and He nods "you didn't give him to me out of spite or hate, you gave him to me out of love" he smiles slightly "he's came into our lives out of love and he's gonna get stronger and he's gonna be raised by two parents who love him and who love each other" he wraps his arms around me and pulls me tightly into him "I swear I'm gonna take care of the two of you. And I'm always gonna love you both"

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Michael's POV

I didn't know it was possible to love her anymore than I already do but after our conversation I feel even more love for Ocean and our son. I know it's going to be tough for both of us but I know we can do this. If Ocean can forgive me for what I did to her then I know we can get through anything.

I didn't want to leave the hospital but Ocean insisted that I go home and get some rest. We got back about 11 and as soon as we got home LaToya and Randy ran straight over before I could even close the door behind me "our they ok? Is the baby ok?" LaToya says pulling me close to her. I sit down and LaToya and Randy sit next to me "He's stable but he can't breath to well by himself and he can't feed by himself just yet either. But they said its looking positive"