Love hurts?

Old wounds

Michael's POV

"Just try and relax. And remember. I'll be just outside, like you was for me" Ocean says rubbing my shoulder's trying to calm my nerves. And I nod taking a deep breath. "I'm going to visit my uncle Luther today, not because I miss him or want to see him, but because like Ocean I need answers and I need to know why he did those things to me when I was a kid. We haven't told anybody where we're going today because I know they will try and talk me out of it, but this is something I need to do. This has has held me back for so long and thanks to Ocean I finally had the strength to tell someone what happened to me and now I have to do this one final thing so I can truly move on with my life and be truly happy and put it in the past and leave it there where it belongs.

I'm finishing off getting ready and my bedroom door knocks lightly and Janet comes in. "hey, has Ocean got the kids ready?" I ask "um, I'm not sure"

"well she needs to hurry up" I huff. My mother taking them out for the day while Ocean and I run some errands (which is the excuse we gave her) I we have to be at the prison in an hour for visiting times. "I was wondering if we can talk now?" Janet asks timidly, bring me from my thoughts. "now's really not a good time" I sigh "Ocean and I have some really important stuff to do right now"

"just like always" she mumbles. "look, I will sit and talk to you about what's going on with you today I promise, but right now we have alot going on. I'm sorry" I sigh. "Do you promise we can talk about it today?"

"I promise. It'll be just me and you and we can talk ok?" I smile at her through pursed lips. I do feel bad about not spending much time with Janet especially with what she's going through and I will sit and talk to her about it, and I'll be here when she's tells mother and dad, but Janet will still be pregnant when I get from seeing Luther so it'll just have to wait because right now I really have to calm myself about this visit.

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Joseph's POV

After Michael and Ocean leave I go to Janet's room to speak to her. "have you spoken to Michael yet?' I ask going into her room and she shakes her head. "I tried, but he was too busy again" she mumbles "are you trying talk to him or just lying to me? Because they'll be moving to Miami soon and that baby needs to be going with them!" I frown "I am I swear. But Michael's always to busy and doesn't seem to have time to talk. If their finding it hard with 3 kids. They probably won't even want anymore"

"they do want more kids. They talk about having a big family all the time. Trust me they will say yes"

"what if you talk to him? He won't blow you off like he always does with me these days"

"because he needs to think this is your idea or he'll say no. You need to talk to him and you need to do it soon, because it's either they take the baby or it'll have to go to another family" I tell her sternly and leave the room. I know I sound cold and hypocritical telling her to adopt her baby out, when I've done everything I can to help and support Michael and Ocean, but Janet is only 13 and will be a single mother and I've been through so much shit with Michael in almost three years I can't go through all that again.

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Michael's POV

"are you ready to do this?" Ocean asks softly and I shake my head. "no... But if I don't do it now, I never will" I sigh and she pulls me in close to her.  "I'll be waiting right outside for you and if it gets to much, you can't can always leave you know that right?"

"I love you" I smile at her through pursed lips "I love you more" she smiles back the same way, pecking my lips. She goes to move away, but I pull her back kissing her deeper, slowly sliding my hand up her thigh and she cuts me off breaking away."now's not really the best place"