Fix My Heart (Discontinued) | Levi x Reader

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I pulled out the cigarette in my mouth and blew out the grey smoke. The room was quiet and cold. The preacher was sprinkling holy water over my dead son's body.

"May the parents of (s/n) come to the podium, please."

I handed my cigarette to Corporal and got up from my seat. Floyd and I went to the coffin. (s/n)'s dead body was laid before us.

"Please say your last goodbyes."

Floyd went to the body and gave him a kiss on the forehead. He quickly left the podium. I went closer to the coffin.

I looked at (s/n)'s hand and saw the ring I had given him.

"I love you, (s/n)." I whispered.

I kissed his cheek and left my baby boy forever. I walked away from the coffin and sat back down. The preacher said his last words and the funeral ended.

Floyd's guards closed the coffin and carried it down to the carriage that will take it away. Floyd and I intertwined our arms and walked out of the building as the mother and father who lost their child.

"I loved him just as much as you did." Floyd said.

I looked up at him with sad eyes.

"I know," I bit my lip. "We both did."

We watched our son's coffin load onto the carriage. Floyd nodded at the workers and they left with the body. We watched the carriage go off into the distance.

I pulled my arm away from Floyd and placed my hand on his cheek. I gently kissed his forehead.

"Thank you for giving me the best thing that ever happened to me."

He kissed my cheek.

"It was no problem." He smirked. "If you want to try to make another one, then I'm always available."

I gave him a small smile and patted his arm.

"Don't push your luck. I still want a divorce."

Floyd chuckled lightly. He pulled out a cigar and lit it up. I took out a cigarette and used Floyd's match to light mine up.

"I better get those divorce papers soon. If not, then I'm going to be pissed." I said while walking away.

Floyd hummed in response and left the church. I went to the carriage where Corporal and Commander were. I got in and shut the door.

They wanted to keep an eye on me so I won't do anything to harm myself. The carriage started going back to the HQ.

I crossed my legs and stared out of the window. The sky was grey and it was about to rain. I felt the tears run down my eyes once again.

My baby boy was gone.

I hadn't prepared for this day, and I wasn't ready for his death. No mother is ever ready for their child's death.

My heart has been crushed. My whole entire life is crumbling before my eyes. Everything I ever loved is gone.

Every time I love someone, it always ends in death.

My parents died, my friends have died, and now my son has died. I covered my face and started to cry.

"(l/n)..." I heard Corporal mutter.

He put his hand on my shoulder.

"He was wearing the ring I had given him." I started to cry harder. "I told him to keep it whenever he wanted to remember me."

I felt Corporal bring me into a hug.

"(s/n) was the best thing that ever happened to me, and now he is gone."

"(y/n)...don't talk. You'll only make yourself more miserable."

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A few hours later, we made it back to the headquarters. It was cold and windy, and I've completely lost the will to live. I got out of the carriage and took off my heels.

"I'm going to my room." I told Corporal.

He clicked his tongue and let me be. I went to my room and locked the door behind me. I clenched my teeth and dropped my heels. I went to the bathroom and started running some bath water.

While it was running, I grabbed all of the alcohol and cigarettes from my wardrobe. I put them all in the bathroom.

"I didn't think it'd be like this." I whispered to myself.

I took off my clothes and got inside the bathtub. The hot water burned against my skin, but I didn't care. The pain in my heart was more overwhelming.

I was alone finally. No one can hurt me in here.

I started crying once again. I pulled out a bottle of vodka and started to chug it down.

The more I drink, the less I feel. The more I smoke, the less I worry.

I drank half the bottle then let it float in the water. I wiped away my tears off my cheeks and kept crying more.

The pain of losing (s/n) is so much more agonizing than I thought. Why did he have to go so soon?

"(s/n), baby," I said between tears. "Come back to me please...please..."

I laid my head back against the tile and covered my eyes. All I see is visions of (s/n). He was my only love, and now he is rotting away underground.

"My baby...don't leave mommy just yet. I'm not done with you."

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Heyyyyyyyy my precious readers!

So I began to watch Kuroshitsuji (Black Butler) and I've already like fallen in love with Sebastian and Ciel *fan girl screams*

I have made it to Episode 3 and I just have this hatred towards Elizabeth... she needs to leave

ANYWAYS, thank you so much for reading this story! All of your votes and stuff makes me so happy like you won't believe. For those who write books, you know what I'm talking about!

Have a great day! Well...its night for me but who cares lol