Fix You || N.H. ✔️

I Can't Feel It..

--Niall's POV--
I slowly opened my eyes and blinked for few times for better view. I frowned from the sound of beeping. Ah, fuck... My whole body was aching... I felt so much pain... Except... No. I don't feel anything from my legs... I see one is broken but I can't feel it. Nothing. I started touching my legs with healthy hand.
"No... No no no..." I said with tears. My bottom lip started trembling. I started to breathe so fast and the monitors were beeping like crazy. I looked at my family rushing in. How they got to America?! How much time I was passed out? I don't remember anything...
"Mom... I can't... I can't..." I said trembling.
"Shhh, Niall. Don't panic." she hugged me crying herself.
"I can't feel my legs, mom..." I said sobbing. I didn't believe what's happening... Is this a dream?? Please tell me it's a dream!
"Niall! Son, come down!" my dad held my hand when panic attack hit me. I saw doctor and nurses rushing in, I just passed out.

I opened my eyes once again. Feeling nothing but emptyness. I better could've just died than this... Everything crashed... Everything. Everything I dreamed of just went down. Who will be interested in a person who can't even walk... I'm nothing now. I don't want anything anymore... Can I end this? Just now? I looked at my legs emotionless. I don't need them anymore... I'm just a worthless piece of shit that from now on nobody will need. I'll be just like a toy that nobody needs. Dragged from one place to another. A human who won't be able to take care of himself, others... Just can't take a simple walk... I want to die or just sit alone at my home and root in a corner. I know that I sound selfish but who will need me? Who will need a man that can't do anything. Just sit and talk... I'm just an existing person now. Nothing more. I don't want my family to suffer because of me... I don't want that... I don't want anyone to suffer because of me.