Fix You || N.H. ✔️

You're Just Like Me

I took Niall to the park and helped him sit on the bench. I placed the wheelchair near us and sat close to Niall to give support while sitting. He doesn't have balance, so he can fall on the side and get hurt. I don't want that.
"Good to sit somewhere else. Not in the chair. You look overthinking today. Did something happen?" Niall asked. I exhaled.
"I wanna talk to you." I glanced at him.
"Sure. Tell me anything." Niall got concerned.
"Okay, umm... I'll show you." I whispered and opened my left ear, dropping my hair back to normal, not just on left side. I saw him staring at my hearing aid.
"I'm deaf. Well, just on left ear but... But I'm getting deaf on the another one kinda quickly. This is my biggest insecurity." I sadly said.
"You mean... You can't hear me without it?" Niall looked away.
"Not much. I'm not totally deaf. If I would be deaf not even hearing aids can help me. Just sign language. It helps me to hear everything as normal people do. And I'm feeling that you need to speak louder and louder for my right ear. I'm afraid to go to the doctors and hear that I need a second hearing aid." I whispered. And we both went silent.
"You are normal, Diamond. Just have a hearing issue that's all." Niall finally spoke. "Diamond if you think I will not talk to you or treat you differently after this, I won't. I've seen disabled children, having cancer children, children who doesn't have anything just family and they're happy for what they have. I know that I'm not the worst case and so do you. And I don't want you to suffer just because of this. I know you are strong and I understand that it's hard to live with this. I can stand up and walk again, but you can't live without the gadgets. And I know there are people who reject people like you. But I don't care. You're just like me, like all of us. And I'm here for you." he said holding my hand tightly. I smiled through tears because what he said really touched me and I've seen it all too and that's why I don't put my issue just to feel sorry from others. I've learned to live with it and be happy. My eyebrows went up from the surprise... From Niall's lips on mine. I didn't expect this but I closed my eyes and responded to his kiss. Is it weird that I'm having butterflies just from the touch of his lips. And goddammit he kiss so perfect. I looked at him when we broke the kiss.
"I'm so sorry, Diamond." Niall quickly said. I licked my lips.
"Why you're sorry?" I whispered. He got confused.
"Because you're taken and I didn't ask for permission, and maybe you didn't want it..." he stuttered. I chuckled.
"If I didn't want it I wouldn't have responded." I smiled. Niall smiled back. "I know you don't feel fine because I have a boyfriend. But he's a jerk and I want to break up but I can't. You know, I feel attached to him...
--Niall's POV--
Oh my God, you're such a jerk Niall... Why you kissed her?! Maybe she just needed a hug and you kissed her. You're weak ass couldn't resist. But the feeling when we were kissing was amazing. Those butterflies. I feel like a girl now, melting from the kiss but trying to hide. I looked at her while she talked. Just look at her. She's so beautiful even with her red, puffy eyes. I those plump lips are so so sweet. If I could I would kiss her for eternity. I concentrated to what she was talking.
"If I didn't want it I wouldn't have responded." she smiled making my heart skip a beat. "I know you don't feel fine because I have a boyfriend. But he's a jerk and I want to break up but I can't. You know, I feel attached to him... That's what holding me. I want him to break up with me and I can go celebrate the independence. He's such a jerk." she let out a sign. I blinked from her words.
"You don't love him?" I asked playing with my fingers.
"I guess I never did." she whispered looking at me.