Fix You || N.H. ✔️

Girlfriend

I dropped my bag coming back from the gym and went for a shower. I quickly glanced at the clock.
"Okay... So, I need to get there earlier. Because squeaky fans will kill me. Probably nobody remembers me, good. I guess." I said buttoning my jeans and I pulled a baggy black shirt on. I blow dried my hair and made them into high ponytail.
"I look like zombie from my depression... Ugh." I whispered looking into the mirror and applied a bit of foundation, did my eyelashes, eyebrows. I grabbed my little shoulder bag and put my ticket, keys, wallet and locked the door. Adam was at work, on his night shift. I drove to the place where the concert will be.
"Oh my... I think I should go back..." I mumbled standing in the line. My stomach already was flipping over and over again. I got inside looking around and tried to find my seat. I quickly dropped my ass. Okay, calm ya ass down Diamond... I wiped my sweaty hands into my jeans.
"I'mma throw up when he comes... I can't deal with my emotions now." I inhaled and exhaled. Fuck my life... Why I came here!? Lord, don't let him recognize me. I sat staring at the seat while people gathered. I don't like crowded places, I get anxiety. I blinked when few girls stared at me.
"Holy fuck!" I said when they started to scream and I thought my aids will blow up. I stood up with everyone.
"Oh..." my mouth opened when I saw Niall. He looked so manly. He changed. I looked down if I didn't get wet. Then I looked back at him feeling how tears fill my eyes. I hugged myself not feeling good. I stood watching him perform, listening to every single word he sang. I almost was at the edge of sobbing. I gasped when I felt someone tapping my shoulder. I looked at the girl.
"I told you it's Diamond!" she told her friend. Okay, so some still remember my ugly face.
"Hi! Did you came to meet Niall??" she asked. I shaked my head.
"I just came to listen to his album for the first time!" I said making a little smile.
"Omg! You never heard Flicker album!?" she was so shocked. I blinked. Did I say something wrong?
"We thought you are his friend or more than that!" she smiled.
"I was until he recovered. We haven't talked after that. What did I miss?" I asked smiling. She looked at her friend.
"He has a girlfriend now! But we ship you more with him. We think all the things are just for promo!" she said. I glanced at the stage. So he moved on... I pressed my lips together trying not to cry.
"Can you show me the girl?" I asked. My heart was pounding so hard and I was shaking. Well, I'm glad he moved on in one part but the other part was breaking.
"Here. Her name is Hailee." she showed me her picture. I looked at the picture. Well, she's pretty but doesn't give me good vibes looking at her.
"You're hotter and we liked you more but others are so blind." the other one whispered to me. I giggled.
"Thanks." I blushed.
"Can we take a picture with you?" they asked. I got confused.
"Amm, sure." I smiled and took a selfie with them. I pressed my lips staring at Niall feeling disappointed of him and myself the most. He probably forgot about me. But that's for the better.
I left the building quickly after the last song, the feeling of crying was so out of hand. I sat in my car and burst into tears.
"You're such a fool for thinking he would still be waiting for you, bitch!" I smacked the stirring wheel.