Fix You || N.H. ✔️

Developing Feelings

It's been a week since Diamond's and Jake's drama. Me and Diamond have come to the part where we try hard from now on. So, since then I started to stand on my feet with her help at least for few minutes. The much I can take, the better. I feel a lot stronger now, moreover Diamond wants to take me to the physical hospital and have a pool therapy with me. She said it would really help me have some strength, activity and relaxation. I'm looking forward to do that because I don't how it's going to happen. Probably they gonna give me a vest or what to float in the water. Plus, I had a lot of thinking about my feelings for this girl. The more I thought about everything the more I understand I'm falling in love with her... But I'm afraid this is not mutual. She got over a break up and pushing her to tell me her feelings would be a bad idea. Since, we got a little bit colder after the drama. I think we both were overthink about everything. And I don't know if I should say that I'm developing strong feelings for her or should I wait for the right moment, or this should be hidden. I'm afraid Diamond is going to reject me not for sitting in wheelchair but for my lifestyle. I see how's she dealing every time we go out and there are pictures of us. I can see that she doesn't like because it's invading her privacy and I fully understand that. But she never complained or said a bad thing about my lifestyle. Maybe she wants but holds back. I like that she would be more honest with me. I like honesty from people. I was waiting for Diamond to get out with bikini because we were already at the pool. It was so adjusted for people like me and any type of incapable people. I watched how one person was exercising.
--Diamond's POV--
I sighed tying my bikini looking in the mirror. There were so many things running in my mind that I thought my head would explode any minute. The most thoughts were about him, Niall. I even catch myself randomly thinking about him, admiring, staring. I feel so good around Niall. I know I shouldn't feel anything stronger towards him but I can't. I can't control it. When I cook and I be like 'Would Niall like this or that?' 'Oh, this definitely would fit Niall' 'Niall loves this!' whenever I do shopping. We even look so coupley. When I lay in bed I get lost because I don't why all of this is happening. And seeing Niall responding to everything the same makes me even more attracted to him. Since, I'm living a single life now I can feel whatever I want, right? But I don't wanna get hurt or hurt him. That's what I'm most afraid of. Both getting hurt.
I went out glancing at Niall, who was watching people exercising.
"Ready?" I asked touching his hair. Niall glanced over me. Damn, how I adore his hair, his eyes, his smell, his touch, warmth, smile, laugh. The smallest things he does. How he starts talking so fast when he can't understand himself and gets frustrated. His cuteness, how he tries to flirt with me, get touchy in every way possible, to be near me as close as he can. And I realize that this man gives me pure butterflies whenever he's around or he just appears in my sight. And the more I think about him, the more I admire him the more I get stronger and stronger feelings for Niall.
"I'm getting anxious. I won't drown?" Niall looked at me while I put a vest on him.
"I won't let you. I'm here, Niall. I'll be always near you, supporting you. I hold your hand for you to be saver. Our purpose is to make you move your legs more. You will feel lighter in the water, so it will give you more access to not put much pressure on your body like you be standing up on the ground, putting weight on your legs." I smiled getting him in the water with wheelchair.
"I trust you." he smiled to me making me die inside. I smiled back.
"Now I want you to take deep breaths and count on your legs to stand up. I'm gonna be your support. Don't worry." I said placing his legs on the bottom. I helped him stand up.
"Take your time, don't rush." I whispered looking at him while Niall held into me tightly. He took deep breaths and made a tiny step making me smile.
"Amazing, don't get distracted." I said slowly pulling him into water.
"Diamond, Diamond..." he started panicking when we got fully in water.
"Niall, shhh. I'm here, look at me. You're fine." I took his face into my hands. He calmed down.
"Come closer.." he whispered. I got closer.
"You look hot in the bikini." Niall whispered into my ear and winked to me.