After hearing her voice again, as expected my heart beats fast. "I-i never intend to leave her. I'm just afraid to face the future with her. Natatakotako na baka'di ko ma-reach ang expectation niya sa'kin. I'm still young, we're still young that time. Gusto ko pang i-explore ang buhay, I broke up with her kasinatatakotako para sa sarili ko at para sa kanya. Kasialam ko sa mgaoras na 'yon, nakaramdam na ako ng stability with her. Pero 'di ko alam kung ano ang nasa isipniya, so I became afraid.Pero nagkamaliako, I thought I can live without her as long as I can see her from afar. Pero higitpapalado'n ang gusto ko. Ang gusto ko ay yung makita ko siya ng malapitan, I want to touch her, kiss her, hug her. Pero 'di ko magawadahilnga nasa malayo lang ako. Until one day I decided that I'll win her back. I can't take it no more, I want to be with her badly. But it'll only be granted if she still feel the same. After what I did to her? I'm ot sure anymore."
"You know there's no point kung 'di mo siya kakausapin. Malay mo she wants your explanation, she still want to be with you. Malalaman mo lang 'yan if you'll talk to her." She advice. I smile. It's her, the girl I've been longing for. "If I'll ask you, what'll you do if you're in her position?" I ask. Ang sagot niya ang pinakahihintay ko.
"Well the girl you're talking about.. I'm with the same situation with her. In the past .. my boyfriend just leave me without giving me an explanation. I don't know what's the matter? We're happy & suddenly he broke up with me, I don't understand. But.. I.. despite that.. I still want to know his explanation & reasons. Despite 5 yrs. have passed my heart's still longing for him. I still want to be with him, I still want us back.." Umiiyak ako ngayon, but I don't want her to hear me. Baka malaman niya kung sino ako.
"Okay, pati ang aking partner ay nakakarelate din sa story ng ating caller. Don't cry Tabi." She's crying.. I make her cry again. "Sorry I got carried away." She said while I hear her sobs. "My name is OD. And thank you for listening to me & salamatTabi for giving me your answer."I ended the call. But the radio's still open.
"Oh, he ended the call. I think he only want us to listen to his story. Well OD if you're listening, we wish the best for you." I smile. Thank you, because now she, without her knowledge, give me an assurance. --
TABI POV
"salamatTabi for giving me your answer.." Why do I feel strange, after hearing that last sentence? --
It's Saturday & its my off today! Yay! I finished my daily routine at umupo sa kama ko, nag-iisip kung anong gagawin ko ngayon. Mall? Nah~ lagi na lang akong nagma-mall. Aish, wala akong ibang maisip. But.. why do I feel that today will be the best & great day? Weird aye.
"TABI!" Ay jusko 'tong Nanay ko, kala mo nire-rape eh. -.-
"Po?" Sigaw ko mula sa kwarto ko sa itaas. "Magbihis ka ng white dress! Magpaganda ka, kung hindi kokotongan kita! 'Wag ka ng magtanong kung bakit, bibigyankita ng 15 minutes! Pagwala ka padito sa baba, mark my words! Makakatikim ka talaga ng kotong sa'kin!" Pagkarinig na pagkarinig ko no'n, as if on cue parang dinaanan ng bagyo ang kwarto ko sa paghahanap ng puting bestida! LINTEK! 'Wag mo na akong pahirapang maghanap sa'yo! On a second, nakakita ako ng off-shoulder at above the knee na white dress. This dress, if I remember bigay ito sa'kin nakalimutan ko lang kung sino. Oh well, at least may masusuot na! Shoes.. SHOES! BINGO! I found a white adidas shoes with a black stripe in both sides. Hmm. Perfect!
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"Oh eh 'di hindi ka na mukhanggurang." -.- Nanay eh.
"Nay andito na 'ko, ready na ba si manang?!" Rinig kong saad ng magaling kong kapatid, na mukhang kararating lang sa kung saan mang lupalop ng mundo nagpunta. Sinamaan ko nga ng tingin.
"Hoy Tobi, FYI! I'm beautiful! Tigil-tigilan mo ngaako sa 'manang-manang' na 'yan!" sinamaan ko siya ng tingin at pinalo sa braso nita, ngumisi lang ang loko. Bawal ko kasing paluin si Nanay, baka makotongan pa 'ko eh. -.- Pinagtutulungan nila ako 😭
"Ihatid mo na ang ate mo, susunodakomamaya." Saad ni Nanay. Eh? 'Di ako na-orient na may okasyon? Naramdaman ko na lang na lumapit si Nanay sa'kin at niyakap ako sabay bulong.. "Goodluckanak." --