forgotten but still loved...BOOK 1#WATTY'S2016)

chapter 6

I enter the kitchen and both Jason and Sally turn to look at me, neither saying much almost as if they have been caught red-handed stealing cookies from the jar. None of them says anything. I switch on the kettle removing cups from the cupboard I turn towards Jason and Sally and notice them already holding cups and I put back the two extra cups I removed from the shelf. I finish make my tea and grab a bagel to go with it as I leave the kitchen I still notice their silence. "It was nice seeing you both," I say as I head back up stairs to my room. I feel slightly disappointed I don't know why I thought Jason came to see me. I forgot he was Sally's friend just as much as he was mine. A knock on the door breaks me from my thoughts.

"Come in" I call and I see Jason peep before coming in.

"Its safe you know, you and Sally were the ones acting all weird on me" I continue to sip my tea.

"Sorry Maggs you just caught me by surprise that's all" he began awkwardly.

"Caught you by Surprise, Why were you surprised Jason? Care to share something with me" I said matter of factually.

"Well firstly, why did you leave and not tell me that you have decided to move back. I thought we agreed that you would be staying with me, so that I can take care of you Maggs. Honestly I felt a little hurt. Therefore, I thought I'd come over and talk to Sally maybe you said something to her. However, when I got here she said she hasn't seen you since last week when we had supper together and I got worried that maybe John came back and that he took you." He lets out a deep breathe almost as if he just ran a marathon.

"Um I thought we agreed that I only move in with you on temporary bases Jason, and I feel fine. I haven't felts this good in weeks and I just thought that I'd give you space or us space. I need to get my thoughts in order, its hard thinking about us when everything at your house reminds me of you. I cannot make a proper decision. I need to think about what I want. I also want to know if you what you felt for me is out of pity, because I do not want and definitely do not need anyone's pity Jase" I lowered my head hoping he didn't catch the break in voice at the end.

Man... I was doing well. I do know right now it felt good to let everything out I have been keeping bottled up inside. I just cannot stand the uncertainty I feel about Jason and it's not his fault but mine.

He comes closer towards me and I'm still unsure of what's going to happen next. He bends down and sits next to me on my bed. "Maggs we have had this conversation before I told you there's no rush, I am ready when you are, but please I'm begging you don't dismiss me even before we have even started to try. I will be honest with you. Yes, I have fallen for you. I guess I have fallen for you for a very long time. Since those very first times, I walked into the coffee shop and saw you. You attracted me to you like bees to honey. I didn't fall in love with you out of pity, I barely knew your past then and I still don't want to know it now. So please Maggie I'm asking you once again please give us a chance" with that he stands up and strolls towards the door but before he leaves, he turns around and gives me one more look. "Please think about it and sms me or call me, I'll be waiting" with that he left.

That night I was so tired but found it hard to fall asleep. When I did, I barely stayed asleep. When I saw the sun rising I decided to get up and get a head start at the day that lay ahead.

I went down stairs after I finished showered, switched on the coffee machine and started breakfast. Sally came down stairs still in her pajamas. "How come you got up so early?" I questioned her.

She mumbled something about having to her driver's license renewed. Then a thought popped into my head. "Um I'll go with you," I told her. Just looked at me with googly eyes I laughed." I think its time I get my learners license". Sally laughed so hard she fell to the floor, which got me started. We laughed and laughed until our breakfast was so cold we decided to just skip it and get some on the way.