forgotten but still loved...BOOK 1#WATTY'S2016)

chapter 30

please check A/N at end. important notice...

For two days I hid in sally's apartment, drank myself to oblivion. I guess I didn't want to face any of the arising problems. I called into reception and informed them about Jason and that I don't know when I'll be in. I made sure to for them to know that I will be escorting Abela around.

Human resources didn't give me lip at all. I suppose they too have met Abela. Jason personally hired me but they still didn't know that I was engaged to their boss and I wanted to keep it hidden until Jason woke up.

I wasn't ready to handle the media all on my own without Jason. Sure people would see the ring on my finger but they didn't know me to know that I have been seeing Jason. So I was safe for now from inquiring minds.

"Maggs are you home?" Sally called from down stairs.

Today I didn't drink. But rather felt like feeding my growing depression with pizza and all sorts of junk food. I wanst ready to go into the world and face it yet. I still needed time. So I snuggled deeper into the duvet and pretended I didn't hear sally arrive.

"Mags please don't tell me your still in bed. Come on we have to go. It's been two days that I let you do what you asked of me. Now I'm going to kick your ass. You didn't spend all these years coaching your self on how to get through tough times just to hide out here and get depressed. I'm not taking that shit Maggs!. So come on! get up. Don't make me get the jug." I could tell by her tone of voice that she wasn't joking but I wasn't in the mood for a scolding.

So I continued to snuggle that was until I shot up straight in bed like a damn rocket about to get ready for take off.

"Shit sally!!! why? It's flipping cold. Are you mad?" I screamed. soaking wet from the water that just made contact with my head.

"Yes I am mad. I am mad at you for allowing everything to get you down. You are stronger than this. I gave you enough time. So get your ass up, have a shower and get ready we need to get something to eat and pop in at the hospital. Don't make me throw a bucket instead of a jug." After giving me the evil eye she walked out leaving me to decide if I was going to put up more of a fight or agree with sally.

Within fifteen minutes I was bathed, brushed my teeth and even out on some lipstick just to make sally happy. I didn't know what my excuse was going to be for not coming to hospital for two days. Just when things were getting better between Abela and I.I and had to go and mess it up.

We took drive through because sally had some weird notion that I was going to waste even more time deciding on what meal to get if we went inside. It was either decide quickly or go hungry. And right now I needed food in y system. Once we ordered. We pulled into the parking of the hospital and ate in silence.

I was trying to will time to go slow to buy me sometime. But that was not happening. I lost all appetite. I just blankly stared out of the window. Wondering where my life was going. I wonder what my mother would have said if she knew the choices I have made.

"Come on Maggs. There's nothing no one can do to you. But you have got to face this. And if Abela gives you trouble just remember I am right here for you." Sally smiled.

Internally I was starting to feel like a crap friend. It was always me that needed taking care of, in this friendship. Why was I like this? After mentally criticizing myself about my and sally's friendship I got out of the car, Following suit across the parking towards Jason's room.

I had tiny butterflies fluttering around in my tummy. I wasn't sure if it was nerves or fear of what I was going to find, but one thing was for sure. I had my best friend to back me up.