forgotten but still loved...BOOK 1#WATTY'S2016)

chapter-27

Beep ...beep...beep... beep that was the only sound that could lull me to sleep. After i sent Cindy home, I stayed behind. I pulled a chair closer to Jason's bedside, careful not to touch any wires. There's was so much pipes and stuff. There was this large one coming from his mouth and then all these wires attached to his head and chest. He had two ivy's inserted, one in his neck and the other one in his left arm.

I stared at this man before me. Only a few hours ago we were so happy. We were playfully arguing who was going to tell the girls we're engaged. And now here he lies not being able to move a inch. I couldn't believe this was happening to me. Why do I always loose the people close to me?

I played with my engagement ring on my finger. Was fate trying to tell me something? God Maggie!! my subconscious screams at me. Stop with this fate story. It had nothing to do with fate. It was an accident. Don't blame yourself. You deserve to be happy.

How could I be happy when the man I was supposed to marry, is lying lifeless in a bed, machinery keeping him alive. I got up from the chair and left the room. I walked and walked down the hallway until I got to door which lead me to and outside area. I crumbled down to the floor the moment my feet made contact with the outside ground. I cried and cried and cried until I got so cold that i had no choice to go back inside.

When I got to Jason's room there was a night nurse checking up on him.

She didn't say anything but just gave me a sad smile. She looked as though she was in her forties.

"Nurse" I softly called.

"Yes dear?" she turned to me.

"Is he going to be okay? I mean... how long does he has to have these pipes and wires on him"

"Well it's not for us to decide whether a loved one lives or dies. It's up to our almighty dear. But I can tell you to pray. Pray for yourself .pray for him and pray for the family. And until he comes around, we can't remove these things. I know its hard seeing all these pipes and wires attached to him, but think of it this way, by having these gadgets; its helping him get better sooner. She smiled once more and left the room.

I decide to do as I am told. I got down on my knees and folded my hands to pray. I didn't know what I wanted to say. It's been so long since I last offered up a prayer. I just felt there was no need for prayer when god had punished me all my life. So why bother asking him for anything. But this was that one other time I was going to give it one more shot.

I closed my eyes and silently prayed. I was praying for a while until my knees hurt. I pulled the chair closer and decided to go back to praying. I kept hoping that while praying god was going to send down a miracle and Jason would wake up but nothing happen.

"You see I once again asked you for help but all you do is ignore me GOD. why cant  you don't just take me instead of taking everything around me? Hey!!!! Take me instead" I cried.

I fell asleep until I felt a gentle push on my shoulder when I came too; I saw Abela standing before me. I wasn't in the mood for a fight with her. All I wanted was to be left alone.

"Why don't you go have something to eat down stairs at the cafeteria" she told me

"I'm not hungry ,I had a sandwich last night. I'm good thanks" I answered back

"Okay "was all I heard from her. After a few minutes I decided that maybe it was best to go and have something to eat. I needed my strength for Jason's sake. I couldn't be ill when he needed me the most.

I left Jason's room to find Abela sitting outside.

'do you want to go get a cup of coffee with me Abela?" I asked rather nervously.