Love Of A Teenage Girl ✔️

| Chapter Nine |

Dear Diary,

My best friend told me to move on from him, but honestly moving on isn't a simple button to press.

Every time I say I'll move on, my heart says no and my brain says yes.

That's a problem that I can't face alone but I have to.

I have to face the fact that he will not love me back.

I have to just move on and forget him.

I just wish to love him as my brother, no more than that.

Just my brother.

Please, just stop heart.

But the heart wants what it wants.

If I do not stop my feelings, I am afraid they are going to destroy our relationship.

I am afraid they are going to tear down the friendship I have been trying so desperately hard to cling onto.

I cannot let that happen, As they say a friendship lasts a lifetime but a relationship lasts a part of your life.

I have to move on.

I just have to.

I recall a day I met him at the mall with my friends and his. We greeted each other and I gave him a chocolate bar. He thanked me and I was happy that I made him happy. It was a simple act that I did that made me happy that he was.

He is the one.

He just does not know it.

He just does not acknowledge it.

He just does not care for it.

I do love seeing his smile and hearing his voice, they're the last things I think about before I drift off to sleep every night.

We talked and laughed and it was the best thing ever. Talking with him is always the best thing with him, even though I am always sky and very awkward at times. He does not seem to care for it and he keeps going like nothing is wrong and I love him for that.

Thank you.

Sadly though, I have to avoid him.

I really have to.

It is so hard to move on from him. I do recall one time I have tried to ignore him for three weeks but after that third week, I came back loving him even more than before.

He is everything.

He is the one.

But what can I do? I'll try avoiding him again but promising myself this time. I have to move on.

I love him.

I still do.

Love,

Your Lover.