Love Of A Teenage Girl ✔️

| Chapter Fourteen |

Dear Diary,

Sometimes I am just too stupid for this word.

Diary you know what I just did? I just sent him a "heyy" and "how are you?" To make a conversation.

Can you believe that?

Am I serious?

Really?

I awkwardly looked away today to avoid looking into his brown eyes that I get lost into, I love speaking to him to be honest.

His past girlfriend is one of my close friends. She does know that I like him and she said she is completely okay with it, even though I did not ask her for her blessing. It is nice to have it though.

Do you ever, hear a song, And remember me? This happened to me, just one time. And you know what I did? I put it on repeat.

My best friend had told me that the day I started liking him is when his past girlfriend broke up with him.

Everyone knew he would not date for a while after that for he is too hurt from what happened. Everyone knew except me, apparently.

He had told me some days ago that I could have had a shot with him if he had never dated her or if she was never even in his life.

It made me a little upset when he said that, that I had no shot but I know that I do not. Maybe I never will, but for some reason I just keep holding on. Holding on to that little What if.

Have you ever fallen for someone you know you shouldn't? Try hard to fight your feelings, but you couldn't? You fall deeper with each passing day, but try to hide it in every possible way. "They're only a friend, and nothing else", that's a lie you keep telling yourself. You keep on saying that they're just a friend, but deep inside, you know you're falling in love.

I love him. I admit it.
I have no clue what to do.
Well, I don't actually have anything I could do.

A well known singer had once said (We all know that it's Shawn Mendes *wink*), "Needle and a thread got to get you out of my head."

And I do believe this is true. It is the perfect description of how he is controlling my mind. How I need to get him out of my head.

My problem is I only go along with my plan of avoiding him in person but on chat, I am a whole different person. I will chat and text him all day and night if I could.

My friends always tell me that they see a connection between us and that we are just goals.

I do not think that you see that I have a hard time believing what they always tell me. Seriously? Goals? They could not of thought of anything wittier?

Sometimes they go as far as embarrassing me. Every time we are in a group and our in public, they always say that. Me being me, it makes me embarrassed and my face felt looking like a tomato the rest of the time. Him just being him, laughs it off and forgets about it.

What I have come to terms with is that we are best friends. He loves me as one and it always makes me smile because I think of our wonderful relationship.

"We're Friends Forever. Remember?"

Every time I remember him saying these words to me, I get so much happier and it immediately makes my day better and brighter.

Friendship is stronger than stones. But relationships are fragile as flower petals.

I love him.

A lot.

Please love me back?

Love,

Your Lover.