Love Of A Teenage Girl ✔️

| Chapter Thirty - Nine |

Dear Diary,

School had started again. Worst two words to read but on the bright side, he's now in the same class as mine. On the first day of school, I didn't know who's my teacher or what to do immediately when I entered. I found two of my guy best friends pushing me to enter school.

I wore my school badge, then, I found someone else pushing me and asking "Hey, how are you?".

I didn't know who was pushing my wheelchair so I just said, "I'm good."

For some reason, I thought a teacher was pushing me then my guy friend told me, "He will be in our class and he's pushing you right now by the way."

I answered by, "Ohh, really? That's great news. Sorry, I didn't know you were pushing me so hi!"

He said, "Hi, and it's okay."

He pushed me for a while, then everyone went to the morning line up. Then, after a while we went to class.

He sat two seats behind me. We didn't speak until after chemistry class.
I found my friend calling him for me to talk to him, I didn't asked her to call him though. She just surprised me by calling him and my face instantly turned red as a tomato and my heart beat was ten times faster. He came to me with his sweetest smile and then he said, "Hi".

I smiled back but my face was red as a tomato, "Hey, I just wanted to tell you I got you something when I travelled."

Then, I gave him a fridge-magnet which I bought to him as a souvenir when I travelled in the summer. His face turned red too, I think he got shy as well. He thanked me and went to sit with the other guys. My heart beat was instantly slower but I was kind of panicking still; we didn't speak for the rest of the day.

After school, I sent him.

Me: "Sorry that I bought you something that's not really valuable and small but I really haven't had time because every time I start looking for something to buy for you guys, my little cousin would cry and I'd go cheer him up. I'm really sorry though, hope you like it. <3"

Him:"Again with the sorrys? We agreed that there aren't any apologizing or thanking between us, didn't we? I'm supposed to be the one thanking you, it looks sick!"

Me: "Well, because it's a really small present so, sorry is the least word I can say right now."

Him: "Yeah, it's small but I'll keep it, I promise. As a souvenir. Thank you again."

Jokingly, I told him "Didn't we say no thanking between us huh?"

He had followed with, "Are you kidding me?"

"Just as I apologize a lot, you thank me a lot." I then typed.

Him: "Well, thanking is better than apologizing at least."

I quickly answered, "Nahh, it's the opposite."

He simply said, "Cool."

Then, I said, "Well, let's make a deal. From now on, no thanking or apologizing to each other. Deal?"

He said, "Well, that's a good idea, deal."

I said, "Good."

Then, I asked questions about the homework and that's how the chat ended, I was really satisfied.

The second day of school, we didn't talk to each other all day because we had a lot of stuff to do and there was no time to chat. There was a free lesson but I respect that he has to sit with his friends too. He has the right to. I'm happy that we're friends and I love how this is going. Even though, I'm a bit distracted these days thinking of school and other things beside him, I still think of him. I like how we're friends and we joke around.

Being in love with each other doesn't mean you have to be lovers. Sometimes, you just have to be friends.

I know I still love him.

I still do.

Dear Him,
I still smile every time your name pops on my phone screen.
I consider you as a main character in my story.
I'd like to tell you again, I still love you.
But don't worry, I'll be okay, I'm on the road of getting over you.
Tell me the story about how the sun loved the moon so much, she died everyday to let him breathe.
You stopped saying goodnight, so I starting having nightmares.

• How do I live? How do I breathe?
When you're not here I'm suffocating. •

Love,

Your Lover.