Vapor {5SOS / Brian Dales}

11.5

Michael

February 2016 (Los Angeles)

To Gia: maybe if you paid attention to me.

Maybe I could have treated you better than he ever did

Did you not once stop and think that Maybe you were hurting me? That I have feelings for you too!

I was just staring at my phone screen; looking at what I'd just sent Gia. It was too late to take it back now. I needed to tell her, yes. But that was not the way I should have told her. I should have told her in person. I should have told her when I last saw her. I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't feel the same way. I wouldn't be surprised if she just if ignored what I'd told her either. I could probably just chalk it up to being over tired, we'd been rehearsing for the tour all day! It was now close to two am. One thing I knew for sure, and possibly the only thing I knew, was that it was going to be so fucking awkward when I saw her in Thailand. I just had to hope, that we sorted everything out by then.

"What the fuck have I done?!" I cried out; not realising anyone was around me
"What are you talking about?" I turned around and saw Ash. I was expecting it to be Calum, but he'd just left
"I don't even fucking know, man,"
"Then why are you complaining if you don't know what you did?"
"Because I think I fucked up with Gi-," I cut myself off before I said anymore, no one knew that Gia was Dana. Only I called her that. Luke thought I liked a girl called Gia, but he had no clue that it was Dana. And that Dana was short for Giordana, "- uh Dana,"
"Uh how?" He asked, both him and Calum knew I had feelings for Gia just before she dated Luke, but I told them I was over her, that it was just a crush and that I was scared of losing her to him.

My phone vibrated in my lap; and I knew the message could only be from one person.

From Gia: Michael, what the fuck are you saying?

I had no clue what to do, "Mikey? You gonna answer me?" Ash asked
"Uh, I may have just told her I liked her,"
"As in past tense, right? Like you did when she started going out with Luke?"
"Uh, yeah?" It didn't even come out as an actual answer. I was fucking questioning myself
"Michael," he said, his voice clear with warning
"Fuck okay fine," I sighed giving in, "I still have feelings for her,"
"But whose that Gia girl you said you liked?" He asked. I wasn't surprised he didn't get it. Calum had his suspicions, Calum had seen her I.D by accident when we were in Adelaide during our tour
"Gia is Dana," I sighed, and ran a hand through my newly dyed blue hair, "Dana and Gia are the same person,"
"I don't get It?"
"Don't worry," I laughed, shaking my head, I wasn't surprised he didn't get it; none of the guys knew that Dana was actually short for Giordana. Not many people did.

I ended up turning my phone off, I didn't want to see what Gia had said to me, "so what are you gonna do?" Ash asked
"I dunno man," I shrugged, "what can I do?"
"Uh be a man about it?"
"Ash," I groaned, "she knows I lied about it now," fuck! Did I really just say that?
"Lied about what?" He asked. I hadn't told anyone what happened between me and Gia over Christmas, yeah I let it slip to Brian Dales, when we were drunk in Bali, and I think Alex De Leon was there as well; but they had no clue who Gia was. Well Brian knew. He was part of the reason my best friends heart was broken. He introduced Luke to that slut at Kylie Jenner's birthday party
"Uh, nothing," I lied, but I knew it was no use. There was no way I'd be able to get my self out of this one
"You are seriously the worst fucking liar, Clifford," he said
"Fuck, fine! We kinda hooked up over Christmas," I gave in
"You didn't?"
"Well we didn't fuck, but it got close, I lied and said it was just the fact that we were drunk, but it wasn't, at least not on my part,"
"You can't tell Luke,"
"Why the fuck does it matter if he finds out about what happened between us? He doesn't give a shit about her!"
"He'd kill you,"
"Why? Because I made out with his ex?"
"You know how he felt about her!"
"It seemed to me that when he came over about two hours before it happened that he didn't even fucking know her! He just looked at her dude, like she meant nothing! I'd finally gotten her to smile that day! Finally after nearly three months and all it took was for him to walk in and act like she didn't even exist to him!"
"Why are you so worked up about this dude? I get it, you like her and she's your best friend, but it's a break up,"
"You don't even know the half of it," I sighed. I got off my bed and walked in to the living room, not really wanting to continue the conversation any more, but I did anyway, yelling the next world from the hallway, "she was a fucking wreck, she called him so many fucking times, probably to give him a second chance, or who fucking knows! He fucking ignored her!" I was pacing up and down the hall now, "her friend, Monti, who I haven't met before, sent me a fucking text from her phone one day! Do you know what the message said?"
"What?"
"She fucking found Dana, past out and fucking unconscious, in the fucking bath tub, with a practically empty bottle of vodka!"