Vapor {5SOS / Brian Dales}

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Giordana

November 23rd (Sydney, Australia)

We walked on stage, our guitars in hand. The stage was blacked out as planned. We took our places behind the microphones, and soon enough; that's when the nerves kicked in. Performing came easy to me now; but performing, with an instrument, was something we'd never done before. We started playing the opening tune of Don't Wish, an we could hear the shock from everyone, in the audience; most of them expected us to close the show with Revenge Is Sweeter. And this wasn't even a single.

"Though nothing's changed on my end, yet you'd think I'd just give in," I began the first verse. My hands were clutching the microphone, as Monti played, and my voice was almost shaking. You could easily tell I was nervous, "I know the game, I've been there. Come back and claim that you care. You say it's always been you, we both know that's far from the truth. I know it's cold and lonely, but I'm not your one and only," I released my hands from the microphone, and grabbed the guitar, hanging around my neck, and began to play the tune to the chorus
"I won't be the one you call, when everyone is gone, and when you treat her wrong. Don't wish that she was me," Monti and I both sang, "Now that I've moved along, it's clear we don't belong, this is your last song, don't wish that she was me,"

Monti did, as I had before, she let go of the guitar, and clutched the microphone. She was no where near as nervous, as me, "I always wish you well, I always try to let you down slowly, I cared enough, but you just kept going," she sang as I played
"I, I always gave you time, I did everything right, but it just wasn't enough, yeah you just kept on pushing," as this was mainly my song, when it came to the singing; we both agreed that I would sing the majority of the lyrics. I sang the lyrics, and played the chords; with the emotion of singing The Last Time, catching up to me
"I won't be the one you call when everyone is gone
And when you treat her wrong don't wish that she was me
Now that I moved along it's clear we don't belong
This is your last song, don't wish that she," we sang the chorus together

"Would fall apart or break your heart. Make it easier to tear her world apart, 'Cause I've started to come accustomed to, Reminding you that we're way past through
I don't wanna do this honestly, do you? We didn't know what love was then. So how can you say that nothing has changed?
And you still regret letting go of me that day?" I sang those words, with so much emotion, remembering everything that happened, just for Monti and I to get where we are today. The heartbreak, the tears, everything. This all happened in such a short period of time, and now I was reliving it; with the world knowing. And now? It felt good, that I could get my side of the story across, telling everyone how I felt.

"You didn't know what love
What love was then. So this is your last song," we sang, and then came the guitar solo. It felt amazing to play an instrument on stage, going hard, shredding that guitar as best we could. The nerves I felt, before going on stage, and even during the beginning of this song, had now faded away.

"I won't be the one you call when everyone is gone
And when you treat her wrong just don't go wishing she was me. Now that I moved along it's clear we don't belong
This is your last song, don't wish that she was me. Don't wish that she was me
Don't wish that she was me
(I won't be the one you call)
Don't wish that she was me
(And when you treat her wrong) Don't wish that she was me," we finished singing the final words, and played out the rest of the outro. The crowd roared, and applauded. And even after, what those two girls said, I felt accepted, among the Australian music industry.

Monti and I walked off stage, into the arms of Holly, "I'm literally so proud of you guys," she said, "thank you for letting me be apart of this," she was crying
"Why are you crying boo?" I asked
"I just feel like a proud mother,"
"You're younger than us," Monti laughed
"I've been with you guys through it all," she said, "and I'm just so happy you've let me be apart of this journey, I couldn't have asked for better best friends,"
"Aww, Hols," I cooed, leaning in and giving her a hug, "we wouldn't have had it any other way,"

Our group convened, just outside the venue, where the awards were held. We were going to be taking a few ubers to our hotel, where we'd get changed, and then head off to Marquee nightclub, where the official after party was going to be held. The sense of déjà Vu came around again. This was the same night club, where the after party was held two years ago. The night, I had to act, like I didn't know the guys. This time though, was different, I didn't have to hide anything.

Once we were back in our room, Crystal, came up to Monti and I, "this probably isn't the right time, and your answer will most likely be no, anyways," she said
"What's up?" Monti asked
"I've been contacted, by representatives, of two stations wanting you two, to do tell all interviews,"
"What shows?" I asked
"60 Minutes, on channel nine, and Sunday Night on channel seven," she explained
"Elaborate on tell all interviews," Monti questioned
"I'll show you the email," Crystal said, handing her phone over to us

Dear Miss Lauderdale,
It has come to our attention here at Channel 7 studios, that you are representing Monserrath Torres and Giordana Angelo, when it comes to Public Relations.

We understand, that the girls have asked not to be asked any questions, on the matters that came to the public's attention o the twenty ninth of October, this year. And we do want to respect their wishes at this time.

Although, with that being said; we were wondering if they would be doing a tell all interview, explaining everything that happened; as we know that the world would be incredibly interested in hearing their side of events.

We have also contacted Modest! Management, in regards to hearing the sides that belong to Michael Clifford, and Luke Hemmings. Though they have declined our offer, not wanting to share their side, until after Miss Torres and Miss Angelo have shared theirs.

We do not expect an answer straight away, as we understand the girls have not had the best relationship with interviewers at our network in the past; and we apologise for that.

We would like to offer  the girls a chance to share their story on our current events, programme, Sunday Night. We promise not to put in any information that they don't wish to share; and make this as factual as possible, as we at the Seven Network, do pride ourselves on that.

We do look forward to hearing from you at your earliest convenience, and we would happily send our interviewer, over to wherever the girls will be; and also we will happily include this story in an episode when Miss Angelo, and Miss Torres, feel is right.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and we look forward to hearing from you.

Sincerely, James Smith
CEO, The Seven Network

"I think we should do it," I spoke up
"Did you even think about it?" Monti asked
"I think it's just time, you know?" I questioned, "we've been avoiding this for nearly a month, and I'm sick of the rumours spreading, I'm sick of the stories; I just want people to know the truth,"
"Are you sure though?" Crystal asked
"I am," I said
"What about you Monti?" Crystal asked
"If G's in, so am I," she shrugged, "it's time people knew the truth and quit thinking that we slept our way to the top,"

"Who the fuck thinks that?" We heard Brian ask. I didn't even realise he was here, I thought he was with one of the guys
"Two bitches from earlier," Monti said, "they think everything that's been said is a total lie. With the whole Luke thing and all that; they think they're more deserving than us,"
"Don't listen to them," he said, "they're just jealous,"

Not long later, we all made our way to the night club, and everything went as well as it could have. Drinks were flowing, people were dancing; and I didn't have a care in the world. All that was on my mind, is that apart from the interview Monti and I were going to do, everything was now behind us; and I could continue to live my life the way I had been, before those ass holes, leaked my private life. Trying to destroy, everything Monti and I had worked so hard to over come. Everything Monti and I deserved. We didn't use 5SOS to get our spot on the tour, and no the stories that were told weren't lies; ad it was damn time the world knew that. Monti and I wouldn't be who we are, with out what happened to us. We wouldn't have the inspiration for the songs we'd written if it didn't happen. I was done being the girl, that broke down when people asked questions about my past. It was time for the world to see just how strong Giordana Marie Angelo is. It was time for the world to know the truth.

Short one, I know. But the next chapter, is going to be the interview; and then this story, will be almost over! I've finally decided on an ending; and a lot of questions will be answered in Bad Decisions!

Please vote and comment, and as always much love xxx