Vapor {5SOS / Brian Dales}

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WARNING!!!! Possible tears ahead! I'm sorry

Giordana

July 15th (Madison Square Garden, New York City, USA)

In all honesty, I could never have been more proud of what the guys were about to do tonight, playing a sold out show at Madison Square Garden. They were all seriously excited; and I didn't blame them. I was excited myself, to be playing here tonight. Although, Monti and I were opening for the guys; this was still in our minds an achievement for us. Four months ago, when we got off the plane in Melbourne, ending our trip in Thailand, both of us never even thought that this would happen, we'd never even thought we'd be doing this. But here we were, backstage at one of the most well known arenas in the world, for sporting events, and concerts, about to go on for our Soundcheck.

I couldn't even imagine how the guys would be feeling right now, I knew it would be a million times more than whatever emotion we were feeling.
Although their excitement was clear; Michael had been looking rather down today, and this was not what I would have expected. I thought he would have been beyond excited and happy like the other three, but that wasn't the case. He acted like he was excited, but the guys and I both knew, it was only for show. I could see it more than the others though. I'd grown up with Michael as my best friend. We were inseparable from the day we met, until the day I moved to Melbourne; and still remained best friends up until just a few months ago.

Monti and I went on stage, and did our Soundcheck of a few songs, that we would be singing tonight. We decided, along with our band just this morning, that we'd be performing Goodbye Gone, for the first time tonight, we'd only performed that at Soundcheck so far, when we didn't have an audience. Our sets were pretty similar each night; we played a few originals that we'd released on the EP, as well as a few well known covers. The audience loved us, and I was constantly asking myself after every time we played, why was I so worried? Even after playing ten shows, I still got nervous, and worried. Worried that the fans wouldn't like us, as well as worried that I'd do something on stage and screw up. Although when it came to our music, Monti and I displayed the upmost professionalism when we performed, it was still hard to get the nerves out of my system.

As per usual, we cruised through Soundcheck, with no problems; except for the usual joking around, which usually consisted of our back up band, playing the wrong song on purpose, just to mess with us. We found it funny though, the guys we had were great, and we didn't mind the joking around.
We got off the stage, and Monti and I decided to give the fans outside, who didn't have the Soundcheck package for the guy, a little acoustic show. We did that at most of the venues. Some may say, that there are selfish reasons behind it; as in we were doing it to get our music out there, which was true, although a lot of these fans would be seeing us open for the boys; but Monti and I also did it, merely because we love performing, and we also love making people happy, and seeing the girls that have been standing around the venue for hours, smile; even if it is just us doing a quick twenty minute acoustic set. It made it all worth it. Seeing them, clap along and hearing them sing our songs back to us, made everything that we had been through, and everything we had done to get to this point, fucking worth it.

After the small set, Monti and I decided as usual, to go and meet some of the fans, take photos with them, sign a few autographs, and answer some of their questions. Usually they were too star struck to ask many, and I didn't know why, mainly because we knew the boys. Usually they just said, "oh my god I love you guys," and things along those lines.

"Gia," I heard a small voice, I looked and saw a girl, who looked no older than sixteen
"Hi sweetie," I smiled, "what can I do for you?"
"Can I have a photo?" She asked nervously
"Of course you can," I told her and we took the photo
"You're really pretty," she said, "and you're music is amazing,"
"Aw thank you," she was really sweet
"Can I ask you a question?" She asked, and I nodded, "what's your inspiration behind the songs you've written? They're all so good, and catchy,"
"Thank you," I told her, "honestly, it's kind of cliche, the songs are about my ex boyfriend, and how our relationship ended,"
"He sounds horrible," she told me, "I can't believe someone would treat you so badly, you're literally the sweetest girl ever, from what I've seen in interviews," if only she knew she was talking about Luke and Michael
"It was bad, but I've moved on, I didn't want what happened in the past to define who I am going to be," that was true, in all senses. I couldn't let what happened between Luke and I, with the whole Arzaylea thing; as well as what happened in Thailand, stop me from being the girl I am destined to be, "although the message in a lot of the songs goes on about revenge, they were only what I was feeling at the time, I'm a different person than what I was when I wrote those songs, they're were apart of the process of moving on,"
"Wow," she was in shock at my honesty. I don't think she expected me to be so honest, but I always vowed to be honest about the message in the songs. However, I would never reveal who they were about
"I have another question," she said, "and I understand if you don't want to answer it, because it's personal, but I saw your cover of Missing You, and you recorded that obviously before you met Brian,"
"I think I can guess where this is going," I laughed, and if the question she was going to ask, was about that song, I would be honest, "that song is a huge reason, as to why I've moved on from the past," I told her, "a friend of mine told me to listen to it, about a week before we recorded the cover, and it helped," I explained, "and I'm probably going to sound like every girl out there saying this, but considering Brian wrote it, I guess it's okay," I was laughing again, "I felt like the song was actually written for me, I don't know why, but it was released when I needed to hear it,"
"I think I know what you're saying," she smiled at me, "you're an amazing person Gia, and you are seriously an idol towards a lot of us," if this girl said anymore, I would probably start crying, "I know a lot of stuff has been said around Hey Violet not opening for the guys, but honestly a lot of us, can relate more to your music than we can to there's,"
"I didn't even know there was stuff going on in relation to them," I laughed, "look I have to go back inside now, but it was lovely talking to you, if you tag me in the photo, when you post it to Twitter, I'll definitely chuck you a follow,"
"You're seriously the best," she smiled. I smiled in return and gave the girl a hug.