Vapor {5SOS / Brian Dales}

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Giordana

July 31st (St Paul, Minnesota; USA)

It's been a month, on tour; and I was exhausted. This eighteen day break, came when I needed it. Although, we'd had a few days off, Monti and I kept active, exploring both the US, and Canada, as much as we could. Some nights, after shows, we'd go out, have a few drinks and then travel to the next city, where we'd have a show. Some nights were sleepless, due to adrenaline pumping through our blood streams; so those late nights on the bus, where we couldn't sleep, we stayed up, writing songs. Holly, who was on our bus, hated it. Her job, was filming for our YouTube and Instagram accounts. The singing, and the frustrated groaning and swearing annoyed her, while she was trying to edit some of the footage she got.

When we got back to LA tomorrow, Monti and I would be heading straight into the studio, to show Feldy and the others some of the new material we'd written; as well as heading to a different studio to film the music videos. We were on break, but we were still working. We didn't have a choice.

Although Adrian, retracted the story, obviously not wanting the video to become public; where I'd called him pathetic and a stalker; things with Brian and I hadn't been the same. I think it was the distance, we'd call and message each other, almost as much as we did prior to the incident, but it still felt strange. He was now busy with Warped Tour, so it didn't surprise me there was less communication than before. I didn't like the strain, but we had to deal with it; if this was going to go anywhere.
In the month it had been since I left, nothing on my part had changed. My feelings towards Brian were just as strong as they were when I left, and I didn't see a change happening anytime soon. My feelings had only grown stronger since the Adrian incident.

I was currently sitting back stage, while the guys were just finishing up, looking at my song lyrics that I'd written down, over the tour, as well as ones that I'd written and forgotten about. Monti was sitting beside me, doing the same thing, "what you thinking about boo?" She asked
"Just songs we could possibly release," I told her, "and I'm trying to figure out some more lyrics to this," I handed her the notebook
"I remember this one," she said, after she'd read through what was written down. I'd written it, just after I got back from Sydney over Christmas, "you went to hell and back girl,"
"I did," I smiled, "multiple times,"
"You should use those words somewhere in this," she suggested, and I agreed.
I looked over what I had, trying to figure out where I should put them in

Been trying to laugh it off
I wrote down a thousand songs
Wish I could say the things I wanna say out loud
But you said, "I don't know you,
I don't know you anymore."
No...
And my girl, she said, "Shake it off.
You won't breathe till you break it off."
We'll run around and act like we are free
Don't let it bring you down, no, no, see?
There's no use in feeling low
No...

Cause it was the heaviest rain I ever felt on my skin
It was the heaviest place that I have ever been in
As the walls crashed down I felt it slip away

I read over the lyrics of written a few times, and it didn't take long to figure out where to add those words in. I picked up my pen, and wrote them down, because I went to hell and back, just to be where I am today. I went to hell and back, just to be where I am today, I went to hell and back just to be where I am today. I put the pen back down, and handed the book back to Monti, "I like it," she said, grabbing her own pen, and began adding more to what I said. It honestly didn't take much longer to finish the song. I'd began writing this ages ago, and we had already come up with a basic tune for the song. I was just unsure about releasing it.

"I kind of think," Monti began, once we got into our hotel room, "I'm ready to release something I wrote by myself,"
"Which one?" I asked, taking a seat on my bed
"I'm not sure just yet, but with everything that's happened, with Harry suddenly showing up back in my life, I'm just ready, ya know?"
"I do," I agreed. Since that night at the bar, where Harry showed up, when we were having drinks with Brian; he hadn't contacted her for a few days, and then all of a sudden the phone calls and text messages began. I didn't know how he got her number, but I wouldn't be surprised if he messaged one of the 5SOS guys and asked for it. Knowing that Monti still hadn't really admitted her feelings towards Ashton, and that they didn't know anything about her and Harry, even though the two of them were together, throughout the Take Me Home Tour; they would have given it to him, especially Michael, considering everything that has gone on between me and him, he wouldn't want anyone messing with any form of relation to me, messing with one of his mates.