unexpected - b.w.s

21. Blue like the ocean

Unexpected - Chapter 21

"Maggie...?" He said worrying.
He stood up, so he was now just in front of me.

He took my wrist, and looked on my arm.

"Why did you do this?" He asked. He was suprised. Of course he was.

"I don't know" I mumbled. I lied.
But I think he know why I did it.

"Do you even realise how fucking stupid this is?!" He looked at me with wide eyes.

"Wh- what if you killed yoruself!" He asked, not breaking the eyecontact.

Okay, now I think he's overeacting a bit. But he was kind of right. What if I had. Just like I was going to do it once a while ago. Before I started on the School.

"Please tell me, this is not because of the Facebook post"

I didn't know if I should tell him or not. It was his girlfriend, who posted it, after all.

"Nn- no.." I answered, shooking my head.
Technically, I wasn't lying. It was only a white lie. It was not only because of the post. It was mainly because, it all came back to me. The hating on me.

"Then what is it?" He said softly. He stepped a little closer, so we were now inches apart. I couldn't help but thinking, what Amy would be thinking about this. Wasn't she mad at Bradley for cheating on her?
Or on the other hand Bradley said they weren't like an item.

"Tell me" he whispered. My heart was beating so fast, by the closeness of our bodies.

I wanted to tell him why I did it. I wanted to tell him everything. But I don't think I could.

"It's nothing... Really"

"Yes it is. I'm serious Maggie! Do you know how dangerous this is?"

"Yeah I know, Brad! But you don't care anyway, nobody does!" I yelled at him. I don't know where that came from. But it was what i meant.

"Don't say that" he said. He looked confused, but also a little bit angry.

"Why? Isn't that what you think?" I asked. I could feel tears in my eyes. I had a big lump in my throat.
His expression softened.

"No it's not what I think" He kept his Voice calm and steady.

I just looked into his dreamy chocolaty Brown colored eyes.

"Sorry.." I mumbled.

"You don't have to apologise" He said, and his mouth curled into a small smile.

•••

"Favorite color?" I asked him.

Currently we were playing 20 questions. He said he wanted to make sure i was in a better mood, so he stayed, and i let him.

It was so rare to see Bradley like this. I don't know where it came from, but it looks like he is showing of emotion. He acctually takes care of me. I thought so.

"Red." He answered simply.

"What about yours?" He asked.

"Probably blue. But not like a ordinary blue. Blue like the sky, or the ocean."

He nodded. "Biggest fear?"

I thought about the answer for a couple of seconds, until I answered. "Being all alone."

I turned my face so I was facing him. He looked at me, like he was trying to figure something out.

"Are you alone Maggie?" He asked slowly.

"It feels like it..." I said with a low voice.

"What about your friends?"

"Well.. The only real friend I had, shared one of the pictures with Amy" I said.

"I'm sorry." He said suprisingly worried.