unexpected - b.w.s

23. Entertainment

Unexpected - Chapter 23

Sometimes you've been so much alone, that you feel like; that's how it's gonna be forever. You think; maybe my life doesn't end up Good. You'll have nobody by your side. Nobody's gonna come to your funeral, because nobody cares.

You'll be all alone.

That's how I feel right now.

I layed in my bed thinking, but I couldn't sleep, the thoughts were getting on me.

•••

I stand up from my bed as I hear the sound of someone banging on the door. I look at my clock 00:18. I wasn't even tired, which was abnormal for me.

I walked over to my door,open it up, and see Bradley standing behind it.

"Hey" he said, and the smiled. He was wearing a gray hoodie, with the hood around his head, with a red Beanie underneath, and some of his curls sticking out. His usual black jeans, black Dr. Martens, and a black shirt under the hoodie. He looked hot.

"Hi." I smiled.

He looked at me for about 10 seconds. Was he just going to look at me, or was he acctually gonna say something?

"So..?" I asked.

"Yeah, um... I'm Sorry if I woke you up, but I was just stopping by, to see if you were okay. And to see if you haven't done anything stupid." He said, and I knew he was talking about my self-harming.

"I haven't done anything stupid, or anything like tha-" I start, but driften off, when I see his jaw. It was totally bruised, and red in the inside, and outside in the egde, it was more blue.

"What happened?" I asked suprised.

"Oh, it's uh.... Nothing" He scratched the back of his neck.

"Who does this to you?" I took of hid hoodie, so I could see the bruise. I lightly touched it with my hand, and Then Met his eyes again.

"No one, just go back to sleep... Don't worry about me." He said, and was about to go out of the window again.

"Why won't you tell me?"

"Because it doesn't matter, Maggie! Just please... Please go back to sleep." He almost begged.

"I can't sleep!" I blurted out.

"Weren't you sleeping just right before?" He asked in a steady Voice.

"No. I.. I can't sleep at the moment." I admitted. It was true. Lately I couldn't sleep, and if I did, I would wake up having nightmares, and Then I would be scared to sleep again.

He looked at me for a couple of seconds.
"Do you want... Company?" He asked, and cracked a small smile.

I just nodded slowly. Not really knowing if this is a bad or a Good idea.

I crawled up in my bed, and layed down. He took of his hoodie, shoes and beanie, and seconds later, he did the same.

He took his arm around my waist, and held me close to him, wich made me feel secure.

I closed my eyes, and soon drifted off to sleep.

•••

I let out a scream, as I wake up. Another nightmare. I sit up in my bed, trying to catch my breath. I was literally shaking.

I hear a groan beside me, and I turn around in chock, to see a mop of Brown curls. I totally forgot Bradley were here. I try to calm down, but I couldn't, I was still shaking in chock like a crazy.
And tears were stilles filled in my eyes.

"Mmag." He mumbled tiredly, as he sit up in my bed.

I notice he was shirtless. He rubs his eyes, and turn his head to me.

"Hey, don't cry.." He said in a raspy voice.

He moves closer to me, and hugs me. His body is warm, and it made me feel safer. He makes me feel safe.

I Press my head into his chest, as he hugs me even tighter.

"Shh, Calm down. I'm here." He said comfortly, brushing my hair with his hand.

When I had calmed down s bit, Bradley asked; "Was it a nightmare?"

I simply nod, letting him know that it was.

I just sat there looking out in my room, with a blank stare. I felt tears forming in my eyes, and Then a tear falling down.

Then a hand lightly brushed against my cheek, to get the tears away.

"Why are you crying?" He whispered. I turn to my side to see that he was looking at me.

"It's nothing" I tried to push it off.

"Just tell me what it is. Maybe you'll feel better." I acctually never believed that. Why should telling someone, make you feel better, I mean it would just be more sad. Then you would think about it.

I shaked my head, looking down.

"Trust me" he whispered in my ear.

I thought about. Maybe it was true, since everybody says so.

I sighed. "It's a bit of a long story."

"We have time" he said still in a husky Voice.

"Okay Then... Um it all started out at my old School. As you heard, i got bullied. They called me fat, ugly and they said that i didn't fit in." I said.

I couldn't help but shiver as Brads hand were tracing comforting cirkles on my hip bone.

"I had no friends, until this one day where i Met a boy. Matt. He were feeling the same as i did. He was also getting bullied. We started to hang out, and i thought Everything was great. Well not great, but it was.. Alright, I guess.
And Then a thursday afternoon, i got this Call from the police, telling me.. That.," I started to get teary eyes again. Bradley looked at me with sorrow in his eyes.

"Babe.." He said. He moved me closer to him, so we were face to face, and only inches apart.

"The police said that he was dead, he killed himself. I thought it was because of me. I didn't know what to do, and i thought about commiting suicide to. One day I really thought i was gonna do it, but Then my mother said to me that we were moving house. I thought that it would be a great start on a new life. I could forget about my past. And Everything would be okay.
And it did. I made new friends that acctually cared about me, until the post on Facebook came. I felt alone again. Everything came back and.." I drifted of crying.

Brad held me tight, and whispered in my ear. "You are not alone, you have me."

"Sometimes i just think it would be better, if i weren't here. If i weren't alive." I said.

"Life is to short, to worry that much, so don't make your life any shorter than it already is.
There May be stages in your life, where you are feeling sad, depressed, anxious or feeling that nobody cares.
But that is life, and you have to get through the bad stages, to get to the Good ones. The unexpected ones." He looked at me.

"And trust me, it's the unexpected, you'll find the most entertaining."