Starting over

Chapter 1

I walk into Starbucks and order my coffee.

"What is your name beautiful?" The barista asks me.

"Becca." I say and wait for him to make my coffee.

"There you go." He hands me my coffee.

"Thanks." I say walking away. I look at my cup and see a number.

I walk home and sit on the couch. I turn on a movie and snuggle into a blanket. I sip my coffee then I hear my phone buzz.

'You okay?' My best fried Tess asks in a text.

I sign and reply. 'Yeah. I guess.' I know she is going to say she is coming over.

'I am coming over.' She says and I laugh a little then I burst into tears. I can't stay strong.

My boyfriend was killed by a drunk driver. I was in the car when it happened. We were coming home from a date and the drunk was going the wrong way and hit Daniel's side of the car. I only have a couple scars from the glass but Daniel is dead.

I hear the door open and I see Tess walk in with tissues and food.

"Awe baby." She says and she sits down next to me and gives me a huge hug.

"I..... Can't..... Anymore....." I say in between sobs.

"Yes you can. It will get better." She says hugging me closer. I sob into her shoulder. I sit back and finally get control of myself and I see that Tess was crying too.

"Sorry." She says and I shake my head.

"You were his friend too." I say and one more tear falls down my cheek.

"What movie were you watching?" She asks looking at the tv.

"The notebook."

"That's not a good movie to watch now. Let's watch a happy movie."

She pulls out 500 Days of Summer. I don't watch the movie. I just lay there and hug Tess. Sometimes I just start sobbing and she pauses the movie until I settle down again.

"It has been a month." She reminds me and I nod as I start to cry again.

"I know." I sob.

"You can't be like this anymore. If you stay down you won't be able to get better again. You will dig yourself into a deeper hole." She says holding me close as I sob into her shoulder.

"I wish it was me. He shouldn't have died. People miss him so much." I pause. "No one would miss me."

"Are you kidding me?! You would be missed. I wouldn't be able to bear losing my best friend. I am almost losing her now and she isn't even dead." She says as she starts to cry.

"I'm sorry. It's selfish of me. It's just so hard."

"I know it is." She says squeezing my hand. "But you are here for a reason. Take it as a second chance. Daniel would have wanted you to."

I look at her with tears streaming down my face. "He would."

"It will get better. And I will be here through out the whole thing."

"Thank you. I am so lucky to have you here." We end up falling asleep on the couch before the movie is over.