Starting over

Chapter 3

I unlock the door and we walk into my living room. Harry looks around the house while we get plates for the pizza.

"Nice place you have here." Harry says coming into the kitchen.

"Thanks. It's not much but it's all I need." I say grabbing some napkins from under the sink.

"You honestly had no idea who I was?" He asks Tess and me.

"I knew who you were but I wasn't thinking about who you were just that Becca was ok. And josh told me about you and the other boys." Tess says looking at me then to Harry.

"Honestly I don't listen to that kind of music. Popular music I mean. I like classic rock like The Rolling Stones and Nirvana, bands like that." I say blushing a little.

"Oh. That makes sense. That's good music. Better then some of the artists now a days." He says smiling at me kindly.

"Yeah. I don't mind pop but I don't listen to very much if at all."

"We can fix that!" Harry says smirking at me. The door bell rings and I grab the money and pay for the pizza. I bring it into the kitchen.

"Pizza!" Josh yells and I laugh a little.

Tess smiles at me. "Let's eat!" She yells and we all grab a plate and some pizza.

After two small pizzas of pizza I am done. "You aren't going to eat anymore?" Tess asks me looking worried.

"No. I'm not hungry." I say and she shakes her head.

"You ok?" Harry asks looking at the others confused.

"She barely eats anymore." Josh says looking at me worried.

"I am fine! You don't have to worry about me!" I say getting up and go to my bedroom.

"Becca!" Tess yells as she knocks on my door.

"Please just go away." I say weakly. I try to hold myself together but it won't work. I let out a cry and I fall onto my bed. I sob into my pillow and I scream out.

"Becca please let me come in." Tess says as she hits the door louder. I hear her slide down the door crying too. I hear footsteps and see the shadow of Tess leaning on the door being lifted up by josh and they walk away. The tears stream down my face.

I hear a faint knock on the door. "Can I come in?" Harry asks softly. I don't say anything and he opens the door slowly. I don't know why Tess didn't just open the door. It was unlocked.

He sits down next to me on the bed. I sniffle and try to control myself. "I'm so sorry for everything that has happened. No girl deserves to go through this. I know we just met but if there is anything you want to tell me I am here. Like I said, any friend of josh is a friend of mine." He puts his hand on my arm and immediately I am calmed.

"I saw him take his last breathe. I was looking into his eyes when he stopped breathing. He had so much fear and pain in his eyes. I can't get them out of my head. I wanted to help him but there was nothing I could do. He lost too much blood. All I got was a couple cuts." I show him the scars in my arms and stomach.

He touches the scars on my arm. "I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine how that much have been and felt."

"I loved him so much. We had been going out for 2 years. Josh told me he was going to propose to me but then he...." I start crying again.

Harry doesn't say anything. There is a pause as he holds my hand as I cry. Then Harry starts to sing to me. I don't know the song but the lyrics make me cry harder. "People say we shouldn't be together. We're too young to know about forever. But I say they don't know what they talk talk talkin' about.
Cause this love is only getting stronger.
So I don't wanna wait any longer.
I just wanna tell the world that you're mine girl. Oh. They don't know about the things we do. They don't know about the I love you's." He stops when he sees it isn't making it any better.

"I'm sorry." He says. "I am only making it worse." He gets up and walks around my room.

"No. Thank you." I say sitting up and wiping my eyes. "That was our relationship exactly."

"That's why we sing it." He says smiling a little.

"That's your song?" I ask surprised. He nods. "Well it just helped me more than you can imagine. I will listen to it when I think of him. Hopefully it helps."

"I hope I can always be here for you."