Love Is Impossible.

Chapter Fifty-Seven. {ben&jerrys}

~*~*{Alexis.Skyla.Roberts}*~*~

I was trying so heard to fight the tears but, they kept slipping down my cheeks. I knelt to my bedroom floor and let it all out. There was no use trying to fight them anymore. I can't be strong all the time.

Bye Zayn. I don't even think I can ever face him again, not after everything I had said to him. He must be crushed. I feel bad, so bad but we both knew it wouldn't work out between us. He wasn't the one, and neither was I for him.

His attitude was just getting annoying but, he was one of the sweetest, most romantic guys I know... so far.

I'm just clearly not the right girl for him.. We lasted for a day. Wow. That sounds extremely bad, it felt like seconds to me. It came and went so quickly. I didn't feel love for him, because love doesn't exist, but I know he felt something for me. Something that I can never feel for anyone.

I wish I had a home that I could run away to, to cry alone. However, this is my home now and I will  have to face the boys sooner or later. I choose later. I must look like a right tramp right now. Thank God, I don't wear makeup eh?

I don't even know how to tell them. Harry will think it's all his fault. Was it though? No... it was Zayn. Though, I'm also to blame... I knew he'd act like this; blaming Harry. We're both equally to blame, I guess.

I carried on sobbing with my face in my already damp palms and I didn't even hear someone creep in until they wrapped their arms around me, holding me tightly to their hard chest.

"Suush, Sky. It's okay princess. I'm here." Niall's words were trying to soothe me, stroking my hair while I sobbed into his chest.

"I-I-I'm a-a I-idiot!" I cried hysterically, feeling so weak and worn out.

"No, No. You're not! You're not princess. You did what you needed to do, okay? Sush.."

"Did he tell you?" I whispered looking up into his sparkly blue eyes.

"Well... actually. We all were eavesdropping..." he admitted sheepishly.

I know I should be angry that they didn't respect our privacy but, we're a family and family's don't keep secretes. I guess it was soo juicy they had to hear it... Those boys are seriously crazy, but I am too so it's fine.

"What a mess..." I mumbled, shaking my head at all the sudden events.

Niall cupped my cheeks into his palms and shook his head at me, "Nope. Don't worry. Everything will be fine... Everything happens for a reason."

I nodded slowly. I honestly wanted to believe that but right now, I just wanted to curl up into bed watching some sad soppy film with a Ben and Jerry's ice cream, like a normal teenage who's just come out of relationship... that's not possible in this house, though... I'll just have to face him, and the others. I can't curl up into a ball and cry, not anymore any way.

"Tomorrow's going to be a lazy day so, why don't you just rest now... okay?" Niall instructed me, laying me down under the comforting soft duvets.

He crawled in next to me and I fell asleep in his arms... It was almost the same comfort like I was with Harry.

Harry would be sleeping with Louis again while Liam will be comforting Zayn tonight.. Just like I have Niall..

That is what happens for falling for a member of a worldwide boy band... damn.

Love really is impossible.

{{and cue another cheesy ending! ANyway, WHAT DID YOU THINK HM? DONT SHOOT ME ZAYLA SHIPPERS. if there is any..Who's y'all fav 5sos members hm? I love Ashton Irwin omg omg curls and dimples WAHEY. Okay so comment and vote please love yousss - Tanisha .x}}

 edited: 12/2/14.