An ocean of tears fills my eyes. I tried to wipe them off with the back of my hand but they just keep on welling up. My vision was clouded but it did not keep me from rummaging my bag for my car keys. When I found the green volleyball key chain in one corner, I immediately grabbed it. My hands were shaking and I opened my car.
I need to get to him.
This is what I told myself. I remembered his eyes, they were hurt and betrayed. And I can’t bare that. I need to explain myself. I need to talk to him.
I am driving a bazillion miles per hour, the speed I have never used. Jeron texted me his location. He is in a bar, drinking his heart out. This is all my fault.
Few moments earlier...
“Ara, for the longest time, I tried to understand. I keep on telling myself that I am the one you love. I trusted your decision to keep this relationship to shield us from all the other issues. I held on to your promise that we are the perfect fit. Then we will be together forever. But I’ve had enough. This is just too much.” Thomas said and every single word was a dagger to my heart.
The hurt in his eyes is almost palpable. I wanted to grab it and take it far away from Thomas.
“Thomas, please. Napag-usapan na natin to, alam natin na may posibilidad na mangyari to kasi hindi naman public ang relasyon natin. I thought you already understood. Alam mo namang sumasakay lang ako. Pero alam na alam kong ikaw ang para sakin. Thomas, mahal na mahal kita, alam mo yun,” I tried to reason but my tears are already free-falling.
“Hindi Ara. Sa oras mismong ito, hindi ko alam,” Thomas said almost silently but to me it was so loud like my eardrums are going to explode. But I wouldn’t mind my ears because my heart just died.
“Thomas,… Huwag namang ganito,” I almost pleaded.
“Sobrang sakit lang, Ara. Sobrang sakit. I saw how you played along with him just to keep us a secret. Sinubukan ko naman ah, pero hindi ko kayang panuorin kang pumayag na makipag-date sa iba at ipinakilala ka pa talaga sa magulang ng lalaking yun para lang hind imaging obvious na tayo na. ANg tagal na natin, Ara, for Pete’s sake!” he’s voice is starting to rise. He was never like this to me. Never a single moment.
I moved closer to him and reached for his face but he moved back.
“I’m sorry, Ara. I can only take so much. Mahal kita pero tao lang din naman ako, hanggang dito lang siguro ako,” he said.
The tears stopped falling from his eyes. He face straightened as he wipes away the remnants of his tears. But when I looked into his eyes, it was burning rage.
“Thomas,” I called, parang natakot ako. “I love you,” that’s basically what I wanted to tell him.
But Thomas retreated, “No, Ara, you don’t.”
He turned his back at me and took off. Right where I standing, I collapsed. What have I done?
...the present.
When I reached the bar where Thomas is, I jumped off my car without thinking of how I parked it. I waved my way inside the bar. I looked around to find the man I have wanted to see. I walked around and around, shoving dancing drunk young adults out of my way. I am almost tired but I kept going until I found my way to the VIP area.
As I entered the room, kids of known people are drinking their expensive liquors. Others are dancing like baboons. But these observations took only a fragment of my attention as I look around.
I move around. And as my eyes caught a corner of the room, my body stood frozen. Not a single cell of my body moved. I can only feel my heart pounding its way out of my chest.
There, I am looking at Thomas, eating the mouth of a woman in a red dress that barely covers her body. Thomas’ hands are working their way on the woman’s chest. Her legs are almost covering the whole of Thomas’.
My life and my heart crumbled right in front of me. My whole body is burning. It’s on fire.
I don’t want to see this. It’s tearing me piece by piece but I can’t move a muscle.
“Enjoying the show?!” A man shouted beside me. I didn’t turn my head to look at him. My eyes are glued.
The man who shouted beside me also startled the two in front of me as they break from their passionate eating of each other’s face.
When Thomas looked up, the color of his face drained. It was like a bucket of ice cold water was splashed to him. I saw the exact expression change on Thomas’ face even the room was dark. It’s like I have a clear view of his face. He immediately threw the girl wrapped around him away. The girl didn’t mind. I thought she was too drunk to mind.
“Ara,” Thomas said in shock.
I didn’t say anything and looked straight into his eyes. I am numb. I can’t feel anything despite of the chaos around me.
Thomas tried to reach for me but I stepped back. I didn’t know how it all happened but I was able to run away from him and he was not able to catch up. When I reached my car, I immediately zoomed it away more than my speed earlier.
I just need to get out of here.
Author's note:
Disclaimer: This story is purely out of the author's mind. The characters' actions does not necessarily reflect the actions of the actual personality.
Hello guys, I am so baaaaaaaackk!!! I am so excited about this story! Thomara forever!!! Congratulations to our favorite girl, Ara!! Champion baby!! Sorry it took me time to conceptualize this story. Gusto ko lasing may storyline talaga. Enjooooyy! Spread the love!
