Thomas' eyes can drown me anytime they want. They are as if talking to my soul that attracts the whole of me. From his eyes, I trace his nose that perfectly fits his perfect face. And further down, his lips...
His lips...
Damn it.
I am giving in.
I closed the gap between our face as my lips meet his. My eyes automatically shut. I kissed him. And it was a long one.
I miss you, Thomas.
As I opened my eyes I slowly move my face away.
Thomas was just staring at me.
This time, he's the one who leaned on me.
There he kissed me.
I love you, Thomas.
This man, that I never stopped loving, is trying to communicate how he feels about me. I didn't hear him say it but I know exactly how he feels about me.
Gently, our faces part and as I open my eyes, Thomas is expectantly waiting for me. His face broke into a gentle smile and I responded equally.
"How am I supposed to let you go alone now?" Thomas said sincerely.
I jokingly rolled my eyes at him, "Mabilis lang ako."
"Uuwi ka ha," Thomas said, making sure.
"Opo," I said.
Thomas pulled me closer for a hug, though not completely because of the baby damulag in between us. Now I am trapped in his arm smelling this all familiar Thomas scent. I smiled but did not protest.
"Natatakot akong pakawalan ka," he said without breaking the hug. "Baka abutin ka na naman ng limang taon bago umuwi."
What he said made me chuckle. I tried to move away to face him but he didn't let me.
"I want you close, don't move," he said.
I smiled and obeyed Thomas' request, well more of a command, "Don't worry, I'll be back before you know it."
"Promise?" he asked.
"Promise," I affirmed.
"Then I will be waiting," he said. "Take care of yourself please. And don't worry about Tyrone. Ako na bahala, hindi ko pagbibigyan ang lahat ng gusto kung sobra na."
I smiled and negotiated a way out of the hug. I looked up to him to meet his eyes, "Sabi mo yan ha. Lagot ka sakin pagdating ko kapag um-overweight tong baby ko."
"Opo, bossing," he said and pulled me back for a hug.
"May plano kang sakalin ako?" I said.
"Wala po. I just miss holding you like this," he said.
Hay naku hindi na po mawala sa mukha ko ang ngiti. I eventually let Thomas be. I draped my free arm over Tyrone to Thomas so I am hugging them both. My eyelids are starting to get heavy until I finally gave in. I closed my eyes but before losing consciousness I felt Thomas kiss my hair. I smiled and then slowly, I dozed off to dreamland.
***
"Ara, anak?" I woke when I heard someone calling me.
I tried to move but I am hindered by the strong and warm arms of Thomas. When I opened my eyes, I saw my mother at the end of our bed. I squinted my eyes again and tried to orient myself.
Yeah. I'm in my room in Kuya June's condo with Tyrone and Thomas. The boys are still asleep when I looked at them. Nakatulog kaming tatlo.
I slowly move Thomas' arms so I could sit up.
