The Year I Met Ryan (Editing)

Chapter 13: The morning after

CHAPTER 13: THE MORNING AFTER

I ran into my house and up to my room. I wasn't sure if my parents were home and I didn't want them to see me. My face was flushed and if they saw me, I knew they would start asking me questions that I was sure I wouldn't be able to answer. I needed to tell someone though, or else I was positive that I would explode. I decided that I would sleep on it and if it was still on my mind the next morning that I would call Diana. She seemed like a good person to call for this.

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I held the phone in my hand staring at it like it was something from another planet. I took a deep breath and dialed Diana's number. I heard the phone ring once and I hung up. How could I just tell someone this who only recently became my friend? I started pacing back and forth in my room, trying to summon up the courage to call her and tell her. I walked into my bathroom and splashed my face with cold water. It felt good.

After that I walked over to my bed and I laid down. I stared at the ceiling. In midst of all the silence, I noticed that it wasn't raining anymore. What if Diana thinks I'm weird? What if she meant she wanted to be friends but not THAT type of friend? What if she tells Ryan I told her? What if she tells someone else?

I cleared these thoughts out of my mind because my brain was at the point of exploding.I figured that at some point I was going to have to start trusting someone my own age. Someone that wasn't Ryan. A girl in particular. I called Diana and let the phone ring until she picked up.

She broke the silence. "Hello?"

"Hi Diana?"

I was still secretly hoping that I had the wrong number. My stomach was in balls of nervousness, wrecking my insides. It's like what I felt with Ryan. Except with him it was in a good way.

"Yes. Who is this?"

Well I guess I didnt have the wrong number. "It's Beth Diaz from math class."

"Oh hey what's up!"

I hesitantly paused. There was still time for me to change my mind. I could have changed my mind and just asked her for something else. But once again I decided to just go with it. "Um well something happened between me and Ryan and I just needed to talk to someone about it."

She squealed over the phone. "Is it good? It's good right!"

I grabbed my hair nervously playing with it. "Well he uh...he kind of kissed me.." The memory of him kissing me flashed in my head all over again. My cheeks got hot just from the thought of it.

She screamed and I had to hold my phone away from my ear otherwise I'm sure it would have fallen off or something. "You guys kissed! Oh my god! Beth! I told you he likes you!"

I rolled my eyes. "He's with Nicki. He doesn't like me."

"With Nicki?" She exaggerated her question as if she had just heard something outrageous. "Nah they broke up girl!"

I paused for a second to think about what she said. It would have made sense, because he didn't seem like the type to cheat, but then I remembered the texts that I had seen between Nicki and Ryan.

She took advantage of this time that I was taking to think about everything, and before I had the chance to say anything, she spoke again. "And, not to mention the fact that he kissed you! How could you say that he doesn't like you Beth?"

"I just..I just don't see it. Trust me. Ryan has something going on with Nicki so I honestly don't know why he would have kissed me." I really didn't have any idea whatsoever. I didn't want to think that he could have some type of feelings for me, because I knew in the end I would just get hurt.