n0t a waste 0f space.

I do not know

I thought I could be something more

I thought I could try new things

Until the things I saw and heard

 Were more than I could take.

But the feeling of surprise,

Of knowing things I shouldn't

Was one that was a vortex

And soon I was lost.

I don't know how I got on the floor.

I do not know how these scars ended up here

And I do not know what made me confused

Or what made me believe 

I am suddenly not worth it anymore.

All I know is that I am far too sad

Far too empty

Far to far from who I used to be

And I don't know if I want to go back

Because that road may just be harder

Than the suffocation I endure right now. 

-s.g.