"how are you feeling"
they ask me today
I say I don't really know
I don't really feel okay.
Are you contemplating suicide?
They ask with concerned eyes,
and I shake my head in confusion
because I don't think that's quite right.
It's just that I don't have the courage
To take the pills or grab the blade,
but if I was in the street as a car came
I don't think I would move out of the way.
I don't really care if I get hurt
Because I can't handle how it feels
But I'm too afraid to end the pain
So I walk on numb heels.
I'm not contemplating suicide
But life feels like a bore
I'm just apathetic to existence
And death does not scare me anymore
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Poetry(Previously named "Poetry for Stargirl") just yer average poems yo.