people say i am kind.
they tell me i am sweetly sincere--
my words like honey, syrupy medicine,
but i am not kind, i am afraid.
i am a spider constructing a web of flowery sentiments
to hide the bloody hourglass on my stomach.
i am a sweet girl, pretty girl,
soft-spoken lips just the way i should be,
rosy cheeks--not from alcohol, not me, i am properly neat.
i care what others think of me, so desperately
need to be loved without the vulnerability.
i will not be hurt, so i'll hurt no one
my lace lies sew up the cracks in my armor
with compliments and gratitude,
but i am not kind, not me, not i.
if anything i am selfish pride, hiding behind
dresses and smiles of my lovely recipe,
kind? not me, i destroy everything.
because i build buildings of beauty
i make friends but my walls never fall,
kindness is an illusion of my marionette doll.
sincerity is ironically sincere from the cracks of my lying teeth.
so don't love me, i am not neat,
and my kindness just preserves safety.
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Poetry(Previously named "Poetry for Stargirl") just yer average poems yo.