I am lost in so many ways. I don't know how I made it home or how I can even talk or write. My summer is slow but busy. I won't be home so I will get rid of most of the pain but I am lost on what to do or how to feel about so many things. How do I feel about people in my life. I don't think I want friends anymore. Can I have a reset button. Can I get a new family. I love my friends but I want to be alone. I want to feel the pain on my own so I know I don't hurt anyone else. I feel like life gave me lemons and I while I was making the lemonade I squirted the lemons in my eyes. I need to refresh the page. Download an anti-virus. He hurt me, you hurt me, she hurt me. You all hurt me. Anxiety and depression are blocking the road. I can't see where I am going, I just know it is dark here and I want out. Maybe I need this summer. This can be my refresh. I can run out the anxiety and depression. They can be gone. Run in a direction where I can see. Turn around and find a time where I was happy. Go back there and sit awhile. Time to find my place
