Study Buddy: A Chris & Miya Story

Chapter 50

Chris

I haven't been to a party since Valentine's Day. And on that Valentine's Day I got the best gift up to date. I haven't been to a party in awhile, because I didn't have time or energy for it. But today, oh I'm most defiantly in a party mood...

I'm just ready to clear my mind. A little over an our ago my mood was in the dumps. With Miya far away it's just easier to think negative. I don't know why, but it just is. With the way her attitude it's going it's making me question every single thing.

For some reason, this argument just keeps blowing up each time we talk. Even if we're not screaming at each other the intensity goes deep. I can sense everything that she's feeling, at least that's what I feel, and her vibe is not as positive as I wish it would be.

A little over an hour ago, I sat with her number typed in my phone questioning if I should call her and tell her I miss her. And in that same hour I started to think about when she was here, with me, and how the little things ticked her off. Then I got mad.

I think it's because I want her here and I can't do nothing about it, and that's making me think about her. But my mind keeps pointing out the flaws in our relationship.

I'm calm now, and I'm ready to get out to that party. Since Thomas' car is working (surprisingly) he's going to stop by and we're going to ride together. So I'm just waiting on him.

I look at myself in the mirror, I ran my hands down my smooth jawline. I sigh and my phone buzzes. I walk over to it thinking it's Thomas, it's not.

Tiana: you still going to that party?

I stare at the text before unlocking my phone, which goes straight to me and Miya's messages:

Lowkey

So can we just let this one go?

Idk
I'm saying lowkey I'm still kind of mad
But like you said we're miles apart right now. No need to display anything, so enjoy your break and I'll enjoy mine.

Damn, I was a little to blunt... I hope that she didn't take it to heart. But then again I have to speak my mind, but at the same time I don't want to hurt her feelings.

I kiss my teeth. We're still together that's for sure, but since we keep telling each other "enjoy your break" I'll just do that. In a sense this break is more so a break from Miya, even though spring break is suppose to be a break from school.

I shrug and lock my phone. I pause and think to myself. "Let me just..." I unlock my phone again and text Miya:

Nah, but for real I hope you having fun in New York. I miss you...

I clear the message, and type: Nah, but for real I hope you having fun.

And send.

On a serious note, why is our relationship so draining, lately? I feel depressed and I can't put my finger on what's actually wrong with us. I shake my head and in that second Thomas calls. Finally I'm so ready to clear my mind...

Bryson Tiller's Don't played. Bryson Tiller is cool and all, straight vibes, but I want some music I can dance to. Nevertheless, I still bobbed my head to the beat. Thomas and I were chilling a moment earlier but some girl took him from me, he didn't even say goodbye. When he comes back I'm going to make sure he knows that kind of was wrong... Like how's he going to leave me by myself... With all these... Things.