Breaking Free

Matt (19 pt. 2)

Ok. Before you tell me how much you hate me, I'm sorry. Serenity thinks I'm evil, and I'll admit. I'm evil. And today I managed to screw up simple instructions twice. Which ended up with me getting text messages from my band instructor. Yup, I'm a band geek. Deal with it. (Texts above in picture) so, yeah. Have a nice read. (Reed😂😂 I know, I'm not funny)
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It was time for school. When I heard Gabe get up I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.

He got up and shook me. He hit my arm. I tried as hard as I could not to flinch and "wake up" as groggily as I could.

I looked at Gabe.

"Time to wake up." He said.

I put my head down and closed my eyes.

He chuckled. "Come on. We have school."

"I don't feel good. Leave me alone." I said, I didn't mean to sound hostile, but I guess I did because Gabe looked slightly hurt by my comment.

I pulled my blanket closer as he got down.

"Do you need me to get you anything?" He asked.

"No." I said. "I just want to sleep."

Maybe it's because I didn't eat yesterday, maybe it's because I am depressed.

I didn't fall asleep, but I pretended until I knew for sure Gabe and Haylee gone.

I went into the bathroom and took the brace and toilet paper off.

I looked at the cuts, they were starting to heal. I lightly touched them with my finger and winced right away.

I put some actual bandages on them and put the brace back on.

I crawled back into bed and pulled the covers over my body.

I just sat there, for an hour, then another, then five more, then another. I heard the door open and saw Gabe and Jaxon standing there. Gabe had Jaxon by the wrist.

"Why the fuck didn't you tell me?" Gabe said.

Jaxon was silent and was looking at his feet.

"What?" I said.

"You know damn well what I'm taking about." Gabe said.

"I don't tell you because it's not like you'd care."

"Bullshit. Why wouldn't I care? You're my be- my friend." He cut himself off from saying best friend.

I was quiet.

"Oh. Now I see." He said angrily. He threw Jaxons wrist down and stormed over to me.

I moved closer to the wall.

He looked at me, his eyes filled with anger.

"Give. Me. Your. Arm." He said. His sentence was chopped up because of how angry he was. "That wasn't a sports injury."

"No. I have rights." I said. I sounded dumb. Too late to take it back.

"That's not what I said when I did the same damn thing."

"I didn't do that."

"Bullshit."

"I-I didn't." My voice started to crack.

"QUIT LYING!" He screamed.

"IM NOT." I screamed back.

He climbed on my bed and grabbed my hand he pulled it closer to him.

He carefully took off the brace as I desperately tried to escape his grasp.

My hand was turning whiter from the pressure.

He got it off and saw the bandages.

He looked at me. He was biting his cheek trying not to say anything. But he looked pissed.

I pulled my arm away from his listened grasp and grabbed my brace from out of his other hand.

I jumped off of my bed and glared angrily at Gabe. I knew I would forgive him, I just need a few minutes... Or a few hours. I brushed past Jaxon who looked absolutely shocked at what just happened.

I didn't bother to close the door and walked quickly down the hall and to the doors that led outside of the school.

I went out to the hangout spot where most of the students in town go; in an abandoned barn.

I saw this girl there. She kept staring at me, she was pretty.

She handed her drink to the guy who was obviously trying to flirt with her. When she walked away from him he looked like he was thinking about what the fuck just happened.

She was walking toward me, she had a low cut crop top, and high waisted shorts to go along with it. I'm not going to lie, she was very pretty, and I'm not even into girls.

"Hey." She said. Her voice was even pretty!

"Hey." I said, I lowered my voice trying to sound impressive.

She immediately grabbed my hand and pulled me out to the dance floor.

"Wait, wh-what are you doing?" I stuttered.

"We are going to dance." She said.

I immediately recognized the song, it was "Sail" by Awolnation.

"Maybe I should kill myself. Blame it on ADD baby." We were dancing to it and I could tell most of the people dancing were either drunk or high.

This girl was trying to move very fast. She's touched my face like she was about to kiss me.

She may have been high too.

She was extremely close to my face, it made me uncomfortable. (I don't love you came on)

She finally kissed me. I don't mean finally in a good way.

I pulled away. I was disgusted with the feeling.

I grunted and left. I felt the tears fall down my face as I ran in the dark to go back to the school.

I went back into the dorm. Gabe was sleeping. The light was off and climbed on my bed and just broke down. I felt my arm hurting, I felt the warm, salty water fall down my cheeks and onto my nose.

She didn't even know my name.

I was trying to be quiet, but it didn't work out to well, either I woke Gabe up or he was already awake because I felt him climbing next to me.