Breaking Free

Matt (11)

Serenity has officially crushed me. SHES SLOWING DOWN MABE (yes I've made a ship name for my own story. Don't judge me.) but, ok. Go read my crushed hopes and dreams.

I woke up an hour late for school because Gabe wake me up. He's been waking me up. That's weird, maybe he didn't get up either.

I jumped down off of the top bunk and looked down to find an empty bed.

Why wouldn't he wake me up?

I went to second period, I still had to go to school.

We have third period together, maybe I'll see him there.
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He wasn't in third period. I started panicking and I just wanted to go up to the dorm room to find him.

I walked up during lunch to find, yet again an empty room.
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After school, empty room.

I started pacing around the room and tried looking around the school for him.

I didn't find him.

I walked back up to the room and broke down in a crying mess pacing quickly around the room.

I quit crying, he isn't my responsibility, I shouldn't have to watch him every two seconds. His fault if he didn't come to school, his fault if he snuck out last night.

I stood up and paced for about 10 more minutes before I heard the door open.

I looked at the clock. 5:56.

"WHERE THE FUCK WERE YOU?!?" I screamed.

I stopped as soon as I noticed the girl right beside him. What the hell? WHAT IS HE DOING WITH A GIRL?!

I opened my eyes wide with sadness, surprise, and fear. I looked from Gabe to her and back to Gabe.

"I should go, see you later, babe." She said, obviously sensing the tension.

She wrapped her arms around his neck and kissed him, not like a quick, cute kiss. A long tongue filled kiss. It was fucking disgusting to watch.

He wrapped his arms around her waist and then she let go and left.

"WHO THE FUCK WAS SHE?!?" I screamed louder than I meant to.

"None of your damn business." He said sassily but calm.

"ITS ALL OF MY BUSINESS! YOU CANT BE WITH A GIRL!"

"YES I CAN! AND WHY DO YOU EVEN CARE!" He screamed back.

I got in his face "B-BECAUSE I JUST DO." I stuttered, my voice almost cracked because I was extremely jealous, I could already feel my eyes burning.

"WHY DON'T YOU JUST GO BE WITH YOUR LITTLE BOY TOY THEN!" He screamed angrily.

"MAYBE I WILL!" I shrieked.

I got out of his face and started moving very quickly and we accidentally hit shoulders.

I slammed the door behind me and broke down crying behind our dorm house. (A/n Jesus Christ, they're really mean to each other.) (This is serenity! so what if they're mean to each other maybe they like it rough.)

There was a boy who came and sat down by me.

He was about my height and he wasn't very muscular, he was very skinny.

"What." I said, hiding my face.

"Can't I just sit here?" He said

"I guess. But I'm guessing you wanted to talk to me considering in in the corner and there is almost 100 feet of wall to the right of us." I said.

"Well. I guess you're right. I'm Jaxon, by the way." He chuckled. His laugh was kind of cute, but no laugh can ever be as cute as Gabes.

I pulled my face out of my hands and turned to face him.

I couldn't see his face before, I just saw part of him walking up to me, damn. He was cute.

"I'm Matt." I said.

He couldn't compare to Gabe though.

I have to let him go. He is with that girl now and there's nothing I can do to stop that.

I have to move on. Well, there's nothing to really move on from.

There was no relationship, and hardly a friendship.

There probably won't be one of either of those.

"Hey, wanna go grab a coffee or something?" He asked me.

"Um. Yeah. I guess." I answered.

"Does now work?"

"Does it look like I'm busy?"

"You have a point." He said and laughed.
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After the coffee he took me to his dorm. He said his roommate was gone and we could hang out in there for a while.

I know what he meant by "hang out". And I think I was partly okay with that.

No the actual sex part, I'm saving that for maybe a different time, but I would be down for cuddling and kissing.

He closed the door quietly.

"You can sit, wherever. It doesn't matter."

I sat down on his bed.

He sat next to me.

I grabbed his face and started kissing him deeply. He laid back on the bed and I crawled on top of him.

We just kept kissing and kissing for at least 5 minutes.

I thought of Gabe for the first ten seconds then I figured "he fucking did this right in front of me. I'm nice enough to do it away from him."

I pulled away and we cuddled for a few minutes, just sitting there.

He ran his fingers through my hair and he fell asleep in the crook of my neck and I laid there petting his hair for a good half an hour before I fell asleep.
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I went back into the dorm the next day to find that girl there again.

I didn't say anything, I grabbed my clothes and left.

It was a Saturday, so I grabbed just regular clothes.
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I walked back into Jaxons dorm and sat on the bed, I didn't feel like talking so I just laid down and fell asleep next to him again.

I felt like I was doing the right thing, I'm getting further with Jaxon than I was with Gabe, even though we technically weren't a thing and me and Jaxon, I guess, are.