Breaking Free

Gabe (2)

A/N aye, I'm Serenity and I'll be doing all the Gabe chapters, read on m8.

To say I was nervous was an understatement, I was terrified. Today was the day I decided to come out to my family, you see my family was extremely religious and thought all gays were going to go to Hell. The only one that I knew for sure that was going to accept me was my three year old sister, Emma.

I was going to do it tonight, hopefully I don't pussy out at the last second like I always do. It took two months to muster up the courage to decide to tell them. I looked up at the clock in the classroom, 2:30 only 30 more minutes before school is out. This is going to be the longest half hour of my life ever, I thought pushing my glasses up and biting the bottom of my lip.

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It was now dinner time and I was seriously considering backing out, I felt like I was going to vomit. I looked at my food and pushed it around with my fork. "Gabe, Honey what's wrong?" My mom, Lydia asked.

"Nothing." I said looking in my mothers eyes, they were the same shade of green as mine, so full of love and concern. "Oh come on Son, you can tell us anything." My dad, John said running his large hands through his brown hair, exactly like my own. Maybe they will be excepting I thought looking at them. My eyes stopped at Emma, she was in her own little word. She was so innocent and pure, her wavy brown hair cascading down her face blocking her large green eyes.

I gulped, "W-well, I have something I've been wanting to tell you for a while." I started, they looked interested in what I was saying, "I-I'm g-gay." I finished and shut my eyes.

It was completely silent, I opened my eyes. My mom had her hand to her mouth and her eyes were round with shock and something that looked like disappointment, my dad looked faraway like he was thinking about life's meaning. Suddenly, "WHO THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU ARE?!? NO SON OF MINE IS GAY!" He screamed and threw his plate, it smashed against the wall beside my head. I saw Emma jump and hide under the table and heard her shriek from fear, my mom was still sitting there, showing no sign in helping me.

My dad advanced towards me, I tried to get up and run but he caught me by the back of my shirt. He threw me to the ground and spit in my face, "MAYBE I CAN BEAT THE GAY OUT OF YOU, YOU DISGUSTNG PIG!" I heard my sister scream again, she was terrified. Our dad never acted like this.

"Please, no." I said weakly. Whack! He smacked me, it stung. I felt tears well up, He kicked me in the side. I tried to scramble away but he stomped on my face. He continued to punch and kick me until I could barely breath.

"D-DADDY, STOP!" Emma said running towards us and grabbing my dad's arm. He pushed her to the ground, that seemed to knock him out of it. He looked at her, "I'm so sorry Emma, Daddy's just mad." He told her helping her up, "And you." He said to me, "Go to you room and think about what you've just done to this family." He said.

I didn't need to be told twice, I ran to my room but not before I snuck another glimpse at my mom. She looked completely oblivious to what just happened.

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I don't know how my glasses survived that, I thought before drifting off into an uneasy sleep.

Maybe a few hours of sleep later I woke up to my mom stroking my hair out of my bruising face, "I'm so sorry I've failed you as a parent." She cried, "Don't worry, we're going to send you to the best Catholic school we can. They'll fix you, they'll make you see that your not gay." She kissed my forehead and left the room.

I started to cry again, stupid, stupid, stupid! I knew I should have never told them!