Breaking Free

Gabe

A/N GUESS WHO'S BACK! ME! That trip was exhausting and I'm happy to be back in my room away from other humans. I did go to Hot Topic, that was awesome because we don't have one in our town. I bought Bailey something and restrained myself from getting me anything, she was pissed at me. You could say she was a steamed Carrot! I don't know why she was so mad, there's a Hot Topic in the city and I go in to the city like every other week.

It was late, Matt had fallen asleep next to me, he had his head on my shoulder and the blankets twisted around him. I looked at him, he looked so peaceful like he didn't have a care in the world. I couldn't help but think how unfair this all was to him, how he would be better off away from him, I mean I was going to have a kid and I couldn't drag him through that. It was unfair to Haylee, no matter how many times she says it was fine I know that it hurt her, and the baby. Oh God, I couldn't do that to the baby, I was going to be a father and I needed to start acting like one. I need to do what's best for the baby, and maybe being with Matt while married to Haylee wasn't the best idea.

I have to break thing off with him, tomorrow, but for now I will enjoy this. I kissed the top of his head, fixed the covers so it was over both of us and wrapped my arms around him. He stirred but stayed asleep, he cuddled closer to me.

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I woke up to Matt kissing my collar bone, "Morning." He grinned at me.  I looked at him sadly, he noticed it.

"What's wrong?" He sat up, I sat up with him.

"Nothing, just thinking." He was about to protest but I leaned in and kissed him, I can tell him tonight. He gasped in surprise and I took advantage and slid my tongue in his mouth, our tongues danced together, It wasn't a heated kiss but it also wasn't a saying 'I love you and will be there forever,' it felt sad, like we were both trying to cling to that moment and never let go because if we did we would be ripped apart.

Matt pulled away first, "We should get ready for school." He whispered leaning his forehead against mine.

"R-right." I got up and grabbed my glasses, I looked at Matt properly now that I could see right, his hair was messy and his eyes were sleepy. "M-Matt?"

"Mhmm." He hummed.

"You know I love you, right? I love you so much."

"Seriously, what's wrong?" He got up and stood in front of me.

"Nothing, just wanted to make sure you knew."

"I know, I love you too." He kissed my nose.

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The day was over and me and Matt were seated on the floor, I knew I had to tell him soon.

"-And then my dad said-" Matt was in the middle of saying something but I tuned him out, I've been doing that a lot today. "Gabe, are you even listening?!?" he snapped.

My head shot up, "Of course!" He was glaring at me.

"No you weren't, you haven't heard a single thing I said today. What's wrong with you?" I got defensive and stood up.

"NOTHING IS WRONG WITH ME, MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS!" I felt bad for yelling at him but I continued, "IT'S NOT LIKE YOU EVEN CARE, SO WHY DON'T YOU JUST DEAL WITH YOUR OWN PROBLEMS INSTEAD OF BUTTING INTO MINE!"

He stood up too, "IT'S NOT MY BUSINESS? LAST TIME I CHECKED WE WERE IN THIS TOGETHER!"

"NOT ANYMORE!" I burst out.

"W-what?" His voice was soft and his mouth was hanging slightly open.

"I-I'm breaking up with you, I can't do this anymore."