By a Chance of Fate | Andy Biersack

Chapter 21

Why does he have this affect one me?

In that moment I knew that I wanted Andy more than I've ever wanted anything or anyone. Everytime we touched sparks would fly. I want to feel what it's like to be in his arms and hear him call me "baby girl", I wanted to know what it feels like to feel his thin lucious lips brush against me and crash into mine.

We sat in silence for a moment and then I realised Andy was watching me.

"What?" I asked feeling a little embarassed.

"Nothing, you just looked like you were day dreaming."

"I was."

"What was it about?"

"You." I said as I leaned over to him and crashed my lips against his.

It was almost like a dream.

"Um Ade?"

"Yeah?"

"Are you okay?"

"Yeah why?"

"You've been zoned out for like 10 minutes..."

"I have?" And that's when it hit me that it was just my imagination. I never leaned into Andy's lips and kissed him. Damnit.

"Yeah, you have. What were you thinking about?"

"Oh nothing, I was just thinking about what I should say to Mrs. Castro."

"Oh, that's all?" He asked scratching the back of his neck while biting his lip.

Fuck I want him.

"Yeah that was all." I felt my face get hot.

"If you say so."

"Why do you say that?"

"It just seemed like more."

"How?"

"I don't know, you just looked like you were day dreaming."

"Oh, no I wasn't."

"Mkay."

"Um I'm gonna go in a minute okay?"

"Alright. Take as much time as you need."

"Alright."

About twenty minutes later I took a deep breath and got out of Andy's car. I waved bye at him while walking towards the front door. I felt my knees wobbling. Right as I reached the door I took in a sharp breath.

Time skip to a few hours later.

"Okay so you're telling me that you wanna tell Andy everything?"

"Yes."

"Why?"

"I wanna be honest with him, and I may be falling for him."

"You are?"

"I know it's crazy because we thought we were brother and sister for a few months, but we aren't."

"Have you told him?"

"No."

"Why?"

"Because I wanna be able to tell him everything before I admit I have feelings for him."

"I don't know if it's such a good idea."

"Why?"

"Um because..."

"Because why?"

"Because aren't you worried he might think of you differently."

"I don't know."

"Well..."

"So what if he sees me differently?"

"What if it's a bad differently?"

"I think I should talk to Grace about it."

"Why?"

"Because she knows. Maybe I'll see if she saw me differently after I came out to her about everything."

"Okay well you know I can't stop you, I can only warn you."

"I know."

I walked upstairs to Grace and I's room and found he laying there reading. When I walked in she put it down immediately.

"So what'd she say?"

"She thinks I shouldn't tell him."

"Why?"

"Because he might 'see me differently'." I said using my hands to show the quote.

"What do you mean?"

"Did you see me differently... after I told you?" I said avoiding her question.

"Well of course. But not in a bad way."

"What do you mean?"

"I just mean that I then realised that's why you were the way you were. You hated cigarettes, you didn't like to be touched certain ways, seeing wooden spoons made you cry, etc. Etc."

"So....?"

"What I'm saying is once he knows he'll realise why you haven't been able to talk about it and why you act a certain way sometimes."

"How am I suppose to tell him though?"

"Get him alone."

"Well duh. I'm not gonna broadcast it in front of the whole school."

"I would hope not." She said jokingly while nudging my arm with her elbow.

"Do you think I should tell him?"

"If you really like him and want to be with him, then yes."

We spent a few hours figuring out how and when I should tell him. Honestly it made me feel a lot better now that I have a plan. I decided to text him.

Me: Hey, ditch school with me tomorrow?

Andy<3: Why?

Me: There's something I wanna talk to you about. Alone.

Andy<3: Does it have to do with what you talked to Mrs. Castro about?

Me: Sorta.

Andy<3: Where are we gonna go?

Me: Are your parents going to be home?

Andy<3: No, they're gone for the next two weeks.

Me: Awesome, we can go to your house.

Andy<3: Okay.

Me: Okay. I'm going to bed, goodnight.

Andy<3: Goodnight sleeping beauty.