California Dream

Chapter 10

*Annie's PV*

I climb into my warm bed and stare out the window. Why did Connor feel like he could do this to me. Everything was perfectly fine and that kiss. The kiss. It was like no other kiss I'd ever experienced. Connor had to of felt the same way, but looking at where we are now I guess not. How could I have been so stupid to feel like I actually meant something to him.

I hear a knock at the door. "Can I come in?" Erin asks.

"Yeah, it's open." the door slowly opens revealing a concerned looking Erin.

"How ya doing?" she asks sympathetically.

"I'm fine," I lie, trying to not make it obvious that I'm dying inside.

"You don't need to lie for me," she says looking me in the eyes. Tears start rolling down my cheeks again. she gives me a hug.

"He just doesn't understand how much he means to me. I feel like I've known him for years since I've been watching his videos, but to him I'm just this girl he met a couple days ago and that hurts more than anything," I say as tears blur my vision.

"I know it does." The door bell rings. "I'll be right back," Erin says as she gets up from the bed. I stop myself from crying and wipe my existing tears away.

I stick my head out my door trying to see who it is. All I hear is Erin say,"what are you doing hear," in a nasty tone. Instantly I know it's Connor.

I slink down the steps and walk up next to Erin. At that moment I honestly don't care how shitty I look, I want him to know what he's putting me through.

"I'll take care of it," I say to Erin as she walks away giving Connor the death stare.

"Don't you have some girl to go make out with?" I spit out at Connor. He looks me in the eyes a little hurt. Good he fucking deserves it.

"Look I just came to talk and hopefully fix this. So can we handle this like adults?" he says back to me.

"You hurt me a lot. I really hope you realize that. I don't think you understand how happy I was when you asked me out. That's something that all your fans fantasize and only dream of ever happening. Seeing you kiss that girl today though made me realize I was just another one of your fans dreaming of things that could never possibly be true," I explain as tears flow down my cheeks again.

"I know I hurt you and every time I see you crying because of me it makes me feel like I just got kicked in the stomach 1,000 times. Just seeing you in pain because of me rips me into a million pieces. What happened today was my ex Ashley texted me , we had decided to be friends after we broke up. All she wanted to do was just hangout but I felt like you would get upset if you found out I was hangout with my ex. We ended up getting into a conversation about when we were together then in the middle of it she kissed me. My mind went blank and I kissed her back. I know I should've never lied to you in the first place. Kissing her back was just fucking stupid and I have no idea why I even did it," he tells me. Soon enough I see a tear sneak out of Connor's eye.

I want to grab him and just forgive him and wipe away all his tears but I can't. I fight every bone in my body not to do it. He hurt me and I can't let it ever happen again.

"I don't really know what to say," I tell him.

"You don't have to say anything. You've said everything you could've possibly said. I was stupid and I'm sorry. I shouldn't even say I'm sorry because if I was I would've never kissed Ashley in the first place or lied to you. I fucked this chance up and I feel like shit for making you feel like you were just in some fake cruel dream. I should've never hurt you like this. I hope someday you can forgive me but if you never do I completely understand."

"Well thanks for coming over and telling me the truth," I say giving him a sad smile knowing this is goodbye.

"Bye," he whispers as another tear falls down his cheek. He turns away and I slowly close the door behind him. I scream inside my head for him to come back. I collapse to the floor right as fat tears stream out of my eyes uncontrollably. At that moment I realize that I truly love him.

*Connor's PV*

I turn away as she close the door behind me. Another tear escapes my eye. I hear sobs coming through the open window next to the front door. I stand at the door wanting so bad to just walk inside and take her into my arms. But I know I can't. I don't deserve her and she doesn't deserve to be put through this pain.

I finally force myself to walk away after standing by the door listening to Annie's sobs as Erin try's to console her. I get in the car and start yelling at myself for being such a self centered person. How could I hurt such a sweet innocent girl. The way she looked at me just felt like a knife went through my heart. As I sit in the car I realize how much I truly love her.

I quickly disregard the thought of loving her. One because if I loved her I would've never hurt her in the first place and two because she could never love me. We only met three days ago she could never love me so how could I possibly love her.

I start the car and try to clear my mind of anything having to deal with Annie. I've gotten over past girlfriends before I can do it again. I turn on the radio to my luck wrecking ball comes on. The song Annie had sung so beautifully when we went to the mall on our first date. Never had I felt so strongly about a person or a song.

I decide to deal with the pain. I deserve it. I can't run from it because I know she can't run from hers.

I pull into the driveway and force myself to listen to the song until it ends. Tears run down my cheeks because I know just like the song me and Annie are over. I get out of the car and quickly walk inside.

"How'd it go?" Kian says almost instantly as I walk in.

I look at him as the tears still fall.

"I'm sorry man," he says.

"Don't say your sorry I deserve it. I should've just told her the truth about Ashley. None of this ever would've happened if I would've just told." I walk upstairs and into my room. I eventually just fall asleep as I let my mind tell me I love her because deep down I know that I really truly do love her, and there's no denying it.

N/R I really hope you guys liked this chapter! I felt like I wanted to cry as I was writing it but I contained myself. Sorry about not posting earlier today, I had a butt load of homework that I should've done earlier this weekend but I was stupid and didn't. Make sure you vote then comment your thoughts on this chapter. let me know if there's any major improvements I should make to the story or if you like it the way it is! I highly appreciate all feedback you guys send me. Well thanks for reading! The next chapter will be up tomorrow afternoon!