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Healing {Ushijima Wakatoshi} (Request)

College AU in which you and ushi are past lovers
Requested by @IROIHS
There will be slight angst but you'll be fine I promise
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As you sat at the seat you'd taken in your morning lecture, you could deny that you felt a certain person's gaze on you. You were sitting in amongst at least sixty other students, yet you knew exactly who was watching you. Of course it had to be him.

You lifted your gaze from your notebook to glance at none other than Ushijima Wakatoshi, who daringly locked eyes with you until you turned away again, feeling your chest tighten with sadness and disappointment. Shortly afterwards, the professor ended his lecture and you hurried out of the hall before your ex could approach you—not that you expected him to anyway. You just wanted to get away from him.

You thought that time was supposed to heal the wounds that your failed relationship has created, but it had been a year and each day tore at the wounds more and more. It was so hard for you to look at the guy who broke your heart and still feel love for him even though he didn't love you anymore. Nothing could fill the void that your relationship created when it ended, and it drove you crazy. You couldn't move on.

As you walked back to your dorm room to hide from the world for a bit, you couldn't help but think about the memories that different parts of the campus held for you. Passing by the main gym reminded you of that wonderful moment when Ushijima had first confessed, telling you that he'd had a crush on you and offering to take you out on a date after his game. You could've sworn he'd played better after he'd gotten that off his chest.

Noticing the cherry blossom tree in full bloom brought back memories of your first kiss and of your declarations of love for one another. That kiss had been so passionate, especially coming from someone as stoic and unemotional as Ushijima. Not only had it shocked you, but it had made you feel special.

Seeing the suites off in the distance triggered memories of you going to visit Ushijima to study with him, keep him company, or simply to have him cook food for you in exchange for a massage from you. You remembered how luxurious his housing situation appeared to you and how much the athletes at your college were spoiled for doing so well.

Before you could get to your dorm, you had to pass by the dreaded gym used strictly for practices. While serving as a site where many fond memories took place, it also served as the location for your heart wrenching breakup, which replayed in your mind so vividly that it brought you to tears by the time you'd arrived at your dorm room.

When you'd gone to the gym to wait so that you could hang out with Ushijima after practice, he'd refused to budge after he'd changed his shirt and stepped outside.

"Wakatoshi... what's wrong?" you'd asked upon noticing that he had a distant look in his eyes and he wouldn't follow you.

It took a few moments, but he eventually told you, "I don't think I can do this anymore, (f/n)."

"Do what? Did you have a rough practice?"

"This. With you."

"What? Why?" you'd asked, feeling taken aback. Upon turning around to face him, you'd been met with his steady gaze. He hadn't shown a hint of emotion in any part of him.

"I don't know how I feel about anything anymore. I'm wholeheartedly devoted to volleyball, and I will be for a long time. That's the only thing I'm sure of. I'm not sure of my feelings for you, though, and I don't want to continue with this relationship until I am," he'd explained, his tone flat and cold.

Tears began to sting your eyes as you said, "But I thought you loved me and you always would."

"Things change, (f/n). I don't like feeling uncertainty at all in my life, and you're the only source of it right now. I don't want to be with you or you to be with me if I have doubts about my feelings for you, so I think it would be best if we took a break and went our separate ways."