5 Weeks Of Little Mix (5SOS/Little Mix Fanfic)

Chapter 32 - Don't Leave Me

Jade's POV:

" Jade...I can't do this anymore" Croaks a weak body lying by my side.

Ashton looks at me sternly, a look of sorrow and fear flashing across his bloodshot eyes.

I firmly grab his hand and stroke it softly.
" No. Don't say that Ashton"

He doesn't respond for a moment but then he clears his throat harshly.

" Jade...you don't understand... I've never felt this bad.... I've been.... dishonest" He stammers, trying hard to catch his breath.

For a moment I fear Ashton telling me that he'd had an affair of some sort, but thinking about it, he's not left the RV once.

When he tells me he'd not been drinking the fresh water my heart could have stopped. He'd been poisoning himself to keep me alive.

" Ash! You stupid idiot....why? Are you crazy?...." I whisper shout, forcing him to give me an answer.

He slowly shakes his head,
" I'd rather die, for you to stay alive Jade"

His words melt my heart but I have no warm feelings but feelings of sorrow and misery.

" You shouldn't have done it. If anything happens to you, I've lost the main thing I care about" I say silently, feeling a lump form in the back of my throat.

Ashton slowly tightens his grip on my hand, clearly using his last ounces of strength.

" Don't Ash...." I protest quietly, trying to stop him from straining himself too much.

Ashton doesn't stop and instead tears start to roll down his warm face, bright red from the heat.

I wipe the tears from his face with my sleeve.

" If this is it.....then I want it to be with my hand in yours Jade" He stammers, trying to talk through the tears.

Like Ashton, I can't hold back my emotions and we both sob together.

" Remember at Disney....you told me you wouldn't let anything happen... don't let anything bad happen now okay?" I cry, my head in his shoulder.

Ashton shakes his head softly,
" Sometimes you have to break promises Jade....."

" What about the other day? Remember? We're in this together" I sniffle, remembering the fun we had in the lake.

Ashton nods his head,
" We are....till the very end sweetheart. I'll always be with you okay?"

I nod my head and agree through the tears and pain searing through my heart.

I didn't think that our situation would ever be this bad. Every time I felt as if it was the end, Ashton would shake his head and knock some sense into me.

However, now he's giving up on himself more than ever, and he isn't telling me it's going to be okay.

It's only now I realise the seriousness of what's actually happening, and now I know it's the end.

It definitely is for Ashton.

" Just know Jade.....you are the best thing that....ever happened to...me" Whispers Ashton through heavy breaths.

" And you are the best thing that happened to me too...never forget that Ashton"

Ashton's POV:

I take in Jade's words slowly and look at her eyes, glazed with tears.

It's in that moment suddenly I realise how lucky I am to have her, and I appreciate her more than I ever have done.

Of course I want to stay positive, but I don't know how I can given the fact I feel I may drift out of consciousness at any moment.

Everything feels blurry, and I can tell it's slowly getting worse.

I have no hope for myself anymore, but I beg that Jade somehow pulls through and makes it out alive.

" I won't forget Jade" I say gratefully in a slightly delayed response.

Well. A very delayed response.

Jade doesn't say another word and instead curls into my shoulder.

Her cheek touches my shoulder and suddenly heat shoots through my body.

She's probably not even that warm, and I imagine it's because of the fact I'm not well.

Pain shoots through my head, and all sound being made around us makes it ache even more.

" I'm sorry Jade" I whisper, holding on to her hand tighter than I already was before.

Jade looks up at me with sheer sorrow in her eyes.
" Don't apologise Ash. Just stay with me babe"

I slowly shake my head. I can't do this anymore.

" I won't lie Jade...I can't go on like this any longer" I say calmly, my throat sore from the lack of water I've drank.

Jade looks at me sternly, panic written all over her face.
" Listen to me. Perrie and Luke are coming back for us. It's all going to be okay. Just hang on please"

I know that Jade is lying by this point. Well, either lying or tricking herself into believing they're coming back.

In my eyes it's all just false hope. I wouldn't be surprised if Luke and Perrie were dead. It's devastating, but the odds are incredibly high.

" Jade...please look after yourself. I want to know you'll be okay" I whisper, stroking my hand through her now matted hair.

" I will be. You'll be there to see it you idiot" Says Jade, a tear rolling down her face again.

I wipe it with my fingers,
" I'm being serious Jade. Please stay strong. You have a whole life to lead"

" I know. And I'm going to lead it with you Ashton. We're getting out of here together" Shouts Jade, once again getting frustrated.

I smile gently and feel my eyes begin to flutter wearily.

The urge to fall asleep is getting stronger and stronger. I know I need to stay awake in order to get through this, but my strength is so drained.

" Ashton....babe...are you alright?" Says Jade quickly, sitting up and placing a cautious hand on my shoulder.

I look up at her unable to speak, and she gawps back down at me.

The room surrounding me begins to turn darker and darker, and knowing I have limited time, I manage to mutter out the words:

" I love you "

Once they leave my lips, not much happens apart from hearing Jade scream " don't leave me" in return.

This is it.

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WHAT THE HELL HAVE I JUST WROTE. I'M TRAUMATIZING MYSELF HERE GUYS. OH MY LORD.

Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this incredibly painful, sad, emotional chapter😭😭😭

I'm going to cry now 😞

- Me 😲